I Think I'm In Love again!

I didn't expect...

Hello there!! Just call me TP. And i'm a girl. :)

Since i graduated, I decided to have a vacation in our hometown in August2013 (will not mention the place). Expected a one week vacation, but it takes longer.

After a month, I worked in a computer shop of my cousin.

When the December comes after the city ends blackout because of the super typhoon. Accidentally meet my old school mate when I'm taking my college before I transfer in to other school.

That night when I wanted to go a place where I could buy for my dinner, because I got home too late at night. I had a one friend who works in a voluntary (i will not specify it), and I didn't know that they are one company.

After my take out order served into my table, while my friend is in my table and chitchatting something. I was able to stand in my chair and then I saw my old school mate. I will name him Boy.

Then he called my name. Then my friend told me that I will be go home later and eat my order there.

And we transfer to thier table with his other co-workers. Then I sat beside my friend cause his the only one I close to be. Then Boy sitting in front of us.

After so many questions from Boy. It feels that our friendship before is getting back. Talk about the past that were we in college.

After a many days. While they have thier mission in the place that damage about the super typhoon. We always talk in our phone and text messaging.

And make decisions something that can we be more closer. After those crazy with. It came into an unexpection will happen to us.

And yes, here we go. I started to fall in love with him, even though I know that he had a girlfriend who's in other country.

I didn't think or mind of about his girlfriend.

We started going out around somewhere and take a drink of beer.

And he take my heart slow to he fall.

I don't know if i'm the one who feels that crazy inlove. I think i'm the only one who knows that we're serious each other.

At the end, after long days came. Ot takes it into a serious situation. I go always to thier house and have a moment with him.

Until one of our love ones leave us. I'd been conplicated of him. It is so much hurts for me.

Because those words he told me are all lies.

I stop communicating on him and stop going thier house. And he did that too.

After a weeks, I'd texted him because I am wondering about my monthly period.

He replied.

Told me that I will go to him. And he sounds excited. But me? I have doubts.

We planned for both us. And, i'd stay thier house for two months and a half month.

Inside that two months and a half months. He frankly told me, that he will break up with his girlfriend. And tell her that he has a new girl and let my profile name in email send it to her so she can see me.

And yes! I am happy for that, because he told the truth.

And here's the worst. Yes, he told her that he a new girlfriend and will marry "me".

In that middle of the night, they are still communicating in email. And I did't mind of it, cause I thought that all are fine.

My feelings get doubt again. And losing my feelings for him.

He just assume that they break. He just assuming to me.

And my hearts feel so much pain because of that.

Yes he told me that he forgot what he had said before. And he has no reason to get a break up.

I'm really stupid for him. I'm so ashame!!

I decided to go back in my father's hometown.

And started my feelings to throw it away for him... And yes it did lost kt feelings for him..

And said this the end for both of us. And I will not be back more..