Poetry

Emptiness

emptiness consumes me

even he

I push away

the scales weigh

but not in my favour

even though they are my lifesavers

I am still so afraid

I want it in my arm, the blade

I am afraid of disappointing them

I am numb

I want to disappear

so they don't too have to deal with my fears

I hate myself for it

I hate falling into this endless pit

I hate that my sufferings have become theirs'

This is not something they should share

I am the weak chain that needs to be cut

I can never forgive myself because I ruin their lives by being their rut

-TAOIApoetry