i just wanna tell you

i want you to be happy

I just want you to be happy. I dont deserve my happiness but i know for sure you do. Youve been through so much and it would be unfair for me to continue drag you down with me. I know you care about me alot too much for me to bare honestly. I cant keep bringing you down with me. I always bring myself down i dont want you to feel like you have to look after me and take care of me. You've done too much for me. Even now as we are your trying to find a way to make me feel better while forcing me to go to prom also. I hate to be a waste of space of a good friendship slot. Im not that useful. Im not even fun to hang around i just get depressed and quite. I feel as if i wasnt around you wpuld be better,so much better. Im just a big wall that block you from the better you. i never wanted to hurt you. I dont want to hide stuff from you, but i cant find it in myself to get the words i need to tell you. so instead of telling you im just gonna push you away again. but i do have some questions but untill next time if there is a next time ill ask them.