Gerard Way is a Criminal

XXIII ~ Chapters

After another few hours of driving down the highway, we finally made it to L.A. What are we going to do now since our objective was crushed? No fucking clue. Gerard and I agreed that we would live down here together with the rest of the guys, but where? What will we do with the money that Gerard stole? What will happen when that money is gone?

I don't really think I'd be able to get a job. Technically I'm a missing person. I've refused to open my phone for fear of what I'd see notification wise. I'm sure Brendon is freaking the fuck out, I'm sure I have a few texts from Ryan, and my neighbor. Chief definitely is suspicious. What do I do?

"What's wrong?" Gerard asked me, pulling into the driveway of Frank and Ray's place. Gerard told me that Mikey used to live here before he got into gangs and such. Hopefully he's learned his lesson this time. 

"Just...thinking." I replied. He raised an eyebrow at me. "What's gonna happen, now that we're here."

Gerard blew out a breath, moving a few strands of raven hair out of his face with the air. "Well, we have money." He chuckled softly. "I think we should just take it a day at a time and find our rhythm. Once we get an idea of our new life, we can plan it out from there." 

I kept my gaze down at my phone. "Our new life." I let the phrase echo in my head. I guess this is a new chapter in my life. My life as a police officer in the state of Jersey is over. My life fighting crime with my best friend Brendon is over. My life with Grey is over. The thought of never being able to see Brendon again made me sad. Like, really sad. I tried fighting back any signs of sadness, but I knew I failed when Gerard placed a hand on my lap.

"Why are you crying, princess?" He asked, wiping away a tear that I hadn't even realized was falling. I sniffled and kept my head down, not wanting him to see me cry again. "Babe, I can't make you feel better if I don't know what's wrong."

"I'm fine." I shook my head, quickly wiping any other drops of salty fluid draining from my eyes. It may have been more believable if my voice didn't crack at the beginning of 'fine'. 

Gerard shook his head and got out of the car. I watched him with pure confusion as he walked from his side of the car to mine and opened the passenger door. My seat belt was already undone so it made it easier for Gerard to pull me out of the car. With one hand he grabbed my right and stood me up out of the car. He pulled me into his arms and held me tight, stroking my hair and whispering sweet nothings into my ear. "Shh baby it's okay.... you don't have to tell me what's wrong if you don't want to..... everything will be alright.....I've got you." Gerard told me and so forth. I didn't start crying again, but I did let my body fall into his grasp. I took a few seconds to calm my breathing and focus on the man wrapped around me.

"I'm sorry I'm such a wreck." My words escaped my lips through a deep exhale. Gerard shook his head,

"Don't apologize for having normal human emotions." He lightheartedly scolded. "Are you ready to tell me what's got my baby girl upset?"

Taking a slow deep breath, I nodded my head that was pressed against my boyfriend's shoulder. "It's just tough not being able to say goodbye to the people in the previous chapter of my life. I won't be able to say goodbye to Bren, or Ryan or Chief. No more cuddles with Grey while being stressed about a case. No more feeling like a super hero while fighting crime at work." 

"Are you saying that you'd rather live your life in Jersey than here with me?" An expression of hurt painted across Gerard's pale features. I immediately felt bad and realized I could have worded that better.

"No, no Gerard that's not what I'm saying at all. It's just that... I just... I don't know how to word it without saying something that could hurt your feelings." I felt exasperated, trying to find the right string of words. "I was close with everyone back home, ya know? And I never really got to say goodbye to them, and I won't be able to. But don't think that I don't want to spend my life with you Gerard, because I do."