Don't Leave Me

Serendipity

Jessica POV

I ran until I couldn't anymore. The tear just wouldn't stop. He loved me. 

Is that really a bad thing? I thought to myself. Of course that's a bad thing. If he found out all the things my father did to me in the past.....It would hurt him. I don't want to hurt him. I don't want him to look at me differently. I thought about calling him but my phone wouldn't even turn on. I know I hurt him back there, but it was for the best. He doesn't need something like me in his life to worry about. I mean he is an Idol. I am nothing. Nothing but trouble and problems. The court system is going to dig up everything my father did to me. I don't even know if I am ready for it all. 

I shiver and look around for the nearest place to call somebody from. 

A block down the road from me is a Telephone booth. I walk to it as fast as I can and shut the glass door behind me blocking the chill air from me. After some time of digging in my purse and pockets I was able to find enough change to call someone, but I also noticed that my notebook is gone. 

I sighed. Gone. I must have lost it running. I dial Dawn's number and she answers in a heartbeat. "Hey girl, how did it go tonight? I heard a few things from our boys. Well is it official?" She said, the excitement was very clear in her voice. She knew. "Ugh. About that. Dawn I don't want to hurt him, Or have him look at me differently. I love him but I can't take him down that path. The court is going to bring up so many things......I can't." at the last part I barely squeaked it out I was crying again. "C-can you come pick me up? P-please......I kept running I don't know where I am.....the street signs say West Elm" I say my voice getting more and more shaky. I felt my legs become weak. "On the way honey, just hold on you will be okay" Dawn says with her voice dipped in sympathy. 

I waited in the telephone booth until she came. The headlights on her car blared at me but I knew it was her. 

As I slowly walk to the car, Dawn gets out. "Come here girl" she says standing in front of the car with her arms spread wide for me. I hug her tight and the tears soak her shirt as I hold on tight to her. "I-i love him.....I-i just c-can't" I says hiccuping and sputtering. "I know I know. It will be alright I promise you, but Jess please listen to me. He absolutely loves you. Even if he finds out your father raped you. It wasn't your fault. Namjoon will still love you. You should know that......We need to get you into the car your ice cold." she says holding me leading me to the passenger seat of her Nissan Maxima. 

The leather seats were warm from the heater being on. I didn't say a word the whole time we drove to my car. The trip felt infinite but it only lasted a few minutes. "Are you going to be alright to drive" Dawn asked me with her window down. I just shook my head yes, and got into my car. I sat in my car for a solid 10 minutes before I started the car and drove back to the apartment. It was already about 1 AM when I made it home. The lights were all out in the place.

I walk into my room and close the door behind me and lean against it sighing. My Himalayan Salt Lamp illuminated my room around me. Only one thing caught my eye. It was my black notebook open on my keyboard. I walk over to it. He was here. He read my lyrics....

Writing on one of the pages caught my attention, but I wasn't sure if I was ready to read what he wrote. I know he was hurt....

"Maybe it's the providence of the universe, it just had to be that

As much as my heart flutters, I'm worried

The destiny is jealous of us, just like you I'm so scared, when you see me"

Was wrote in bold on my paper. The tears flowed again. He's worried too.....and scared....

I held my notebook to my chest tightly. I have to apologize to him. What I did was wrong.....

I plugged my phone into my phone charger and waited. It seemed like I waited ages, but finally it started to charge.