Hardwork(BWWM)

Epilogue

            Im ashamed to say that I could only really picture my self with a white man. I know people say its because you don't love yourself or some stupid crap like that but fir me it was never like that. I love me and I love who I am. I know who I am and she is beautifully dark, to be specific the shade 445 in fenty. She has her natural 4c kinky curls though short she still rocks it. Shes short about 5'2 and has the right proportions for everything not to big but not to small ya know.
         Even though it took me some time to love myself as the aftican queen I am, it still takes me a second to really think that i have never once seen myself with the thoughts of marrying one of our fine black brothers. Don't get me wrong, when I see a fine peice of dark chocolate, you dont know how hard I try but every time its.
" Babygirl you cute but i only really like me the lightskin girls and its nothing aginst you its just im not bout to deal with your attitude when the time comes so text me if you wanna smash or something."
         Like really nigga, we gon go there. I know, I know yall probably think im one of them dark skinned women who dislike light akinned girls cause of my experience in life and love but in all honesty, it aint they fault. They just live they life and do what they do they might be going through the same thing as me but i don't hate. I appreciate cause why hate those who do no wrong.
       My choice in men or boys sometimes has never changed. I like em pretty with mesmerizing eyes and kilowatt smiles and thats on both sides of the spectrum. I like my black men sporty and my white men with problems but thats just who im drawn to. I never could have guessed that my world would have been turned upside down over some stupid nonsense that happened years ago in my past but I guess that you cant help the road you walking on. It all started in highschool when i said hi to the new boy just to make sure that he aint lonly. I never knew that he, not me, would drag that shit on like it was a damn trophy but what can I say. I like um crazy.