The Secret Cancer Patient

Chapter 1

Mom, I'm fine can you please close the door I don't need your help to get dressed!

"I'm sorry but you know how I am if you need anything to let me know"

god she's so overprotective I have cancer but she acts like I'm already dead

"Jess come on you wanted a normal life and this is your last year of school i still don't think its a good idea for you to go back to school" my mom yells from down the stairs

ill be ready in a minute mom and yes it is a good idea I want to have a normal life even if its just for a bit and you promised not to tell the school anything about me. I ask her

I know that sounds stupid that I don't want anyone to know I have cancer but I'm turning 18 I graduate this year and I've been dealing with this since I was 2. I just want to be normal for a bit.

I'm coming down now we have to stop and get more pencils I only have 1 and I don't wanna lose it.

"ya we can stop on the way do you want to stop and eat too I feel like it would be nice if we did" I know what she's trying to do and I don't mind I've been homeschooled since we found out. I know she wants to go and tell me how much she loves me and that if I need anything and blah blah blah.

I got in the car and fixed my makeup that my mom made me rush through, I fixed my hair too I was one of the lucky ones that didn't lose there hair somehow. Its gonna be a good day! we stopped at McDonald's since we started running a little late. I watch the trees and the other cars go by as we make our way to my first and last year of high school. I'm so nervous what if they pick on me for other things none of them will know I have cancer. 

My mom pulled up to the back of the school just like the principal told us too I look over and my mom is crying. of course she is. 

listen I'm going to be fine ill see you at 3 and ill text you at lunch to tell you how I'm doing.

"I know I'm just so proud of you and I'm extremely scared I love you"

I turn and leave to walk into school. I can feel everyone's eyes on me I can't tell if they are making fun or just looking because I'm new. I keep to myself all day the teachers made me introduce myself multiple time but i just kept my head in my book I brought from home

i text my mom at lunch just like i said I would when i feel wetness down my back I turn and see the group of guys my stomach drops as they all sit and laugh I get up and go get my gym shirt to wear and go to my next class

that's not that I wanted to happen today and of course one of the assholes are in my English class. shocker

I sit down and feel his gaze on me and of course, he's sitting right behind me because I have the best luck in the world. I turn around and roll my eyes at him he smiles and I go back to reading.

Thankfully that was my last day but as soon as I get in the car my mom swamps me with questions "how was it, was anyone mean to you, what all classes do you have" 

Mom, I will tell you all later I'm so tired and can you pack me snacks for tomorrow I got dizzy a couple of times since my eating is all messed up

"yea hunny I can do that for you when we get home to take a nap then me you and your dad can all eat dinner together" my mom says while looking at the dog in the car beside us. she always wanted a dog but couldn't because of me they put too much effort into me.

When we get home I slide into my PJs that I will be in for the rest of the night it's only 4 but I know I'm not going anywhere. I can't sleep right away I keep thinking of lunch and the kid that sat behind me I don't even know his name but he had the nerve to smile at me knowing what his friends did.

I take a 2-hour nap and get ready to be questioned by my parents I know everything they are gonna ask so I prepare myself. And I prepare to put on my best smile and lie.

I go down and eat they don't ask too many and I tell them how I walked to class and read, listened to the teachers and ate alone. 

"I'm sure you will make many friends tomorrow but your new and I bet everyone was shocked you've never been there," my dad says while putting food in his mouth the rest of the meal was just like normal they talked about my appointments that are coming up and what they are for. I keep thinking about other things and not pay attention I go back to my room and put my headphones in I listen to the music that helps me when I'm upset but it's not. I don't want to go back tomorrow but I can't tell my mom that. Maybe just not today I won't tell her.