The Astral

- The Awakening -

Ha... I really thought it was gonna be all fun and happiness at first... you know? Which 14 year old with escapism as their main source of happiness wouldn't have wanted magic right? I have to admit, there are a lot of good times... but it was waaay more than I would've guessed. I decided to begin a log of interesting events I've experienced since my memory isn't so good and also since there isn't much places where this kind of information is gathered these days.

When I was first getting into things I didn't know at the time I would be permanently giving up any sense of normalcy I had in my life. It wasn't even important I was just being greedy... at times I regret the choice but I know I made the right one. I'll begin where it all started.

It was sometime in November, 2018. I was an average nerdy teenager, living a normal teenage life. Tv, school, gaming, anime, it was pretty much all I did. I had fun but I felt like something was lacking. Lacking may not be the correct word though, it was more of a lust for adventure that wasn't being quenched.

My brother was very spiritual for a few years. He was given abilities which allowed him to find out spirituality was real. For some reason I didn't really put to much thought into all of that until one day where it just clicked "why don't I try getting some cool abilities?" I knew it had something to do with chakra, and in an anime I liked they could use chakra too.

My brother told that it was astral projection. You use your subtler body in the astral plane where you can manipulate chakra and astral energies. My brother didn't tell me much of how to do these things since it could be dangerous so I decided to ask around. There must have been others who knew about this right?

There was this boy named Jay in my class, he came to school with remnants of saffron powder on his forehead which is a sign that he does some sort of Hindu rituals every morning. I thought it would've been a good idea to ask him and it was. I approached him when he was alone because it definitely seemed cringey.

The exact conversation is a blur now, but he surprisingly did know about the astral. He was the second person I knew who told me it was real so I was really determined to learn. I had Jay to compete with and learn with too so it would've been even more fun.
That was the motivation I needed. I did a lot of research on YouTube and Google and had some decent ideas of where to start.

As soon as Christmas vacation began a few days after I spent all my time training. Reciting mantras to build up internal energy, using mudras to build and control energy, scouring the internet, trying to control my energy, meditation, even trying to astral project. I even used mantras and mudras while gaming or eating or doing anything except sleep. I trained so much I even dreamt of doing.

During the last week of vacation while I was sleeping I had a dream, a dream where I could astral project. Normal astral projection is where you transfer your senses and your consciousness to your astral body while what I was doing was having control of both my astral body and physical body simultaneously. I later found out that's called bilocation or mind projection, but I'd still call it astral projection to make things simpler. My astral body was as if it were made out of energies. I was blue and translucent.

As I woke up I tried project and it worked. After another few days I could see vague outlines of humanoid shapes. I didn't know what exactly they were but I knew I was seeing through the astral veil. I went to school and told Luke about it, turns out he could also mind project. I wanted to find out what else I could do with astral projection other than seeing astral beings.

After a few days I realized that in the astral I could teleport to a place I knew or walk through walls. If I went there I could see what was happening, though it wasn't all accurate and it was blurry. I was able to stand next to my physical body and see through any material I wanted to (yes,even clothes), zoom in on a particular area or object and see energy as well as the outline of astral entities.

I came to school one day and was feeling off. Any little thing someone said I felt affected by it. That's when I noticed that's theres a subconscious change people go through when they unlock astral magic. You either become significantly more or less emotional. Jay choose the less emotional route but I chose the opposite. Stronger emotions means more happiness right? And even if it meant more pain too then it also means I won't hurt others. That was a naive train of thought.

A few days later is when I realized that this wasn't just fun and games. My actions have consequences.

It was the night of February 19th. I felt really weird. My body pained all over. I felt dizzy sometimes, even nauseous. I remember it well because it was a "super blood wolf moon". I had a dream or a girl trying to talk to me. She had magenta energy radiating around her. Fair skin and long black hair. I woke up confused but didn't pay it much attention. I arrived at school early so took a nap and ended up dreaming her again. She had a beautiful smile and said her name was Tera.

I woke up and saw Jay. I told him about what happened and he said it was most likely a possession. Not the type of possession you see in horror movies but more of a symbiotic possession. I didn't know what was even a thing. I tried using energy and I could see some of her energy also flowing through me, it was really exciting making progress.

Jay did some digging and told me that the reason Tera attached to me was because of the energies created by the super moon was messing with a lot of the astral entities. Tera wasn't the only one of her race to attach to humans apparently. Jay said there were a lot more.

A few more days of training went by and then I saw her in my dreams at school again. I didn't remember what she said when I woke up but I saw a outline standing next to me. I used my current energies and Tera's and I was able to see more than just the outline. I could see details on him and facial reactions and an actual body. It was still a little blurry but it was really cool. He gave of the same vibes as Tera so I figured she was trying to tell me he was one of his friends her friends.

Soon as time went by more of them showed up. Eventually there were 7 of them including Tera. My abilities also improved a lot. I even found out there was another boy in our class who could project. The odds of there being 3 of us in the same class were so coincidental. His name was Dan, he didn't want people to know about these abilities or that he could do it.

Ever since Jay and I told him that we started projecting a lot, he started to do things in the astral too. I saw demonic beings moving around near him, they were working for him. I never saw a demon in school before just places like cemeteries or bushy areas when passing by.

During math class one day I felt a sudden wave of sadness. My heart felt heavy and my eyes were watering. I looked in the astral plane and saw one of Dan's demon's hand through one of Tera's friends. He had jumped in front of me to protect Tera and I from getting hit by the demon. I watched him slowly die right in front of me being unable to do anything.

Class ended soon after and I rushed to get answers from Dan. He said Tera and her friends were crowding his way so he was just making room. They didn't even do him anything though, they were never near him. He was both astrally and physically stronger than me so there was nothing I could do to him.

Soon after I felt like a part of me was disappearing. I noticed it was Tera leaving me. She couldn't stay now that it wasn't safe for her and her people. I was too weak to protect them. Do you know what it feels like for someone to die because you were too weak? Tera helped me so much and she almost got killed because of being with me. Her friend died cuz I was too weak to save her or him. That's the first time I felt a weight on my shoulder. Till this day I don't know whether the heaviness is a burden, guilt, sadness, responsibility or a mixture of both.

My heart got engulfed in sadness and rage. I lost my only astral friend because I was weak. The astral is tuff. I knew then I needed a lot more training and a lot more power if I didn't want to feel that pain again and to have happiness so I started training even harder. There was nothing I could do to Dan yet but I made sure I never let my hatred of him go so I can have revenge.

That was the first time I saw someone using the astral projecting for bad and it made a big impact on me. Now I'm strong enough to prevent bad things from happening in the astral, but that's a story for a different time.

This probably wasn't one of the best events... cuz death and stuff... but it was my start. I promise the future events would be more fun and more adventurous.