Who Am I? (On Going)

WAI 36

3 months later

Renee's Pov

Nagpunta akong park para mag jogging kasama si Starr, simula nang magkausap kami sa beach, hiningi na niya phone number ko para pag gusto niya daw magbonding kami, madali niya akong maaaya.

"Oh hey Renee, kain muna tayo ng lugaw, nagugutom ako"

Ang laki ng pinagbago ni Starr, ang bait na niya kausap ngayon, masyadong seryoso, hindi na siya masyado mapangasar, in fact he's always concern about me, diba dapat mas iniisip niya sarili niya dahil sa kalagayan niya ngayon?

"Saan ka pala nakatira ngayon Starr? Hindi kaba hinahanap nila Loraine?"

"Speaking of her.. she almost committed suicide the other day" Sabi niya sakin at napatingin sa malayo.

"What?! Why did she do that?" Natigilan tuloy ako sa pagkain ko

"Because I caught her red handed! Nakipagusap ako sa kanya and I confronted her immediately about me, about everything, and she admitted that she lied about everything, she's insane. But I always care for her, so I forced her to go and take a session from a psychiatrist and the doctor said that she's obsessed, not with me but with love, affection and attention, the doctor also said that she might have ADD and she's traumatised from her past relationships, kaya ganun na lang siya sakin"

"I feel sorry for her, I shouldn't told you everything, pwede naman siya ang magsabi sayo" napaiwas ako ng tingin.

"You did the right thing Renee.. if it weren't for you, hindi pa siya madidiagnosed with mental health issues at mababaliw nalang siya ng tuluyan, she needs therapy and that's what she's dealing with right now"

"I don't know how to react, but I pity her.. sa sobrang pagmamahal niya sayo nagawa niyang magsinungaling at piniling maaksidente kayo at inabuso niya yung amnesia mo.. sana lang gumaling na siya" Sabi ko na may paghihinayang.

"Palagay ko, kasalanan ko din naman lahat ng ito, hindi ko man maalala ang lahat, pero pakiramdam ko na ako ang puno't dulo" -starr

"Everything will be alright Starr... nandito na ako oh? Ayaw mo ba ko maging kaibigan manlang?" I chuckled to make the presence at ease.

Nagkwentuhan na muna din kami ni Starr habang nagjogging kami, nagpaplano siyang umalis para kitain ung family niya at sinasama niya ako, mag outing daw kami. I also asked him kung pwede ko isama friends ko, he said yes naman, so isasama ko yung dalawang magjowa sa bahay.

He even told me about their disappearance that night, sabi ni Starr, Loraine confessed everything, na kaya sila umalis non ay nagpanggap si Loraine na may emergency that night and they argued while in the middle of the road at doon na nangyari ang maaksidente sila dahil pinilit ni Starr na bumalik sa resort, sa amin, pero inagaw ni Loraine ang manibela kaya naaksidente sila.

I can't believe it, after ko pakawalan si Starr, ganito pa nagawa niya! Pero wala na din naman magagawa ang galit ko dahil nangyari na, I just wish na gumaling siya and make herself better than before.

"Its fun hanging out with you Renee, it makes me comfortable and safe"

"Wag ka ngang ganyan! Baka ma fall ka sakin, hindi pa ko handa ulit!"

"Akala ko ba mahal mo ako? Nung magkasama pa tayo noon??"

"Well yeah, but natutunan ko na din mahalin si Blue kaya broken pa din ako sa pagalis niya"

"Sabagay, don't worry Renee, hindi na ko aalis sa tabi mo from now on, even if it leads us to something or nothing, thank you for this day, I'll call you on Saturday, okay?"