And Suddenly You Were My Everything

Saddest part of My Life

As I was trembling inside the hospital room, he suddenly whispered, "i love you Hina, ill always will"
those are the last words came out to his mouth before his last breath. His pale skin is as cold as his last tears.

At first, i thought he would be able to survive,
I prayed, prayed, and prayed.
I thought having a 4 years and 7 months of relationship would make him fight and want to stay in this planet. Carlo was my everything, and I actually made him my world since day one.

Hearing those words, made my whole world stop. I knew from the start that it would turned out this way, but I didnt expect it to happen on my day. I lost him on my 24th birthday, and that sucks.

Carlo Francisco, was my childhood friend, bestfriend rather. He's soft hearted and always made me as his priority. We grew up in the same village and went together to the same school. We went to college and he told me what he felt all this time and asked me to be his girl. I said yes, he was my first love. I never knew he had a cancer until we graduated in college, but its too late.

When Carlo told me hes suffering from stage 4 cancer of the blood, my eyes didnt blink for a minute. I thought he was fooling around  and doing his vlog again but i didnt see any cameras and he had that straight face. As I think of the situation Im in, I cried and slap him for not telling  me right away when he knew he had it.

I hate him for hiding it from me. Well, I still love him and I dont know how can i find a stable job in this situation. Im broke af and my boyfriend just left me.

It was rainjng during his funeral, lots of relatives cant accept the fact that he left us. His parents including his older sister, Jamela, told me that I should be free and find someone who I can love and live with. Well, I just nod and said that maybe not now but soon I can truly move on.