Shark Face Love (Ben Haggerty Fan Fic)

Chapter Seven

-previously:

We both get out, not bothering to go inside, we walk down the road, hand in hand, to the park, on the swings. I stare at her, with a smirk. I'm so lucky.

"So Beth, I need to tell you some things you may not have known about me.. Things I need you to know but I am scared to get out."

"I'm here, I'm listening. And I will not leave you now, I will try to stay forever. Make this an eternity." She says looking at me. Smiling.

-now:

I am choking up, all I can think is that she will hate me. Leave me. Desert me. I can't have that happen. I sit there. Starring at her.. I can feel my face turning red and my eyes welling with tears. I'm so scared.

Bethany's POV:

I'm watching, I don't want to force him to tell me but I can tell that he is scared. Whatever it is. He doesn't like it.

I watch him while he contemplates. As his face turns red and his eyes fill with tears, I panic.

I take a moment to think when one tear goes streaming down his face.

"You don't have to tell me. I don't need to know. If you're scared. Fine. I will never force you to do that, please baby. It will be okay. I promise." I say as I reach over and wipe the stray tear from his cheek.

He looks away trying to be tough. I can tell he is breaking. So my instinct is to grab his hand, stand up, pulling him up with me, and I wrapped my arms around his waist. At this point, whatever is going on is upsetting me too, so I start to sob just as he does when I hold him. He broke. And I need to be his happy place. I don't ever want to be anything but that.

I can hear him mumbling.

"Why. Why. Just why please. I don't understand."

"Why what why?" I say as I look at him and he buries his face into my neck.

"I have been through hell and back. And meeting you that day at the show made me think. I knew there was something. Something I had to fight for and I am." He mumbles in my neck.

"What do you mean? You mean I'm worth fighting for? Why?" I say, crying a bit more.

He lifts his head from my shoulder.

Bens POV:

I look at her, putting my hands on her cheeks, wiping the tears off her face.

"Bethany, I fought my whole life. Mistake after mistake. I battled a lot. Drugs and alcohol. I wanted to disappear because no one would care. But when you were there. At my show. I knew you were what I needed. I need you. Since I met you. I have no urge for anything. Nothing. Beth I-" I'm babbling and crying now but she cuts me off.

"Ben. No. Please. No. Don't ever 'disappear' don't ever leave me. I need you. I need you so much. And I want to be what you need I want you to be happy. I want you to have someone, me, to turn to whenever with whatever. I don't care. Your past is over. I just want to be a part of your future. Please." She's crying, bawling her eyes out. I can tell she means what she says. I really hope that me and her can fight this.

"I promise Bethany. I love you so much. I need you so much. I will not disappear. You are what I need.." I don't think I have ever cried this much before.

At this point we are in each others arms. When it starts to rain. I hear her giggle as she lifts her head and wipes her face. That's when she looks up at me and wipes my tears away, and she leans in and kisses me.

"Check!" she says hugging me.

"Check what?" I chuckle, confused.

"A kiss in the rain, checked from my bucket list." I can tell she's smiling, just as she lets go of my waist and grabs my hands.

"Well make that check twice." I say smirking, kissing her again.

She giggles, it's adorable.

Bethany's POV:

I'm giggling. Trying to stay happy. He is so amazing, so, ugh, so unexplainable. I don't know why this is so, so, uh- so different. He's different, we are different. But it's good. It makes me happy. I don't care about his past.

"Darling, we should head back, don't you think?" Ben whispers, adorably.

I nod agreeing, as he just takes one hand and looks at me as we begin walking.

"You know Ben, I wish that moment could last forever, but to have you forever, that's all I need." I say glancing over at him, I smirk.

He let's go of my hand and pulls me closer, resting his hand on my shoulder. I never really noticed how much taller he was, but I think he is perfect.

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guys, I kind of want to change Gabbys name bc I just realized my brothers gfs name is gabby. though my gabby has existed longer. I feel like its weird. so let me know if and to what should I change it too. 💕

~~~~ it's Bethany now(:

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