Depression Mode

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Jimin doesn't know about this thing i have. I call it depression mode. It's whenever I'm very sad or anxious about something, it makes me talk alot more than usual and feel very anxious if something is pressuring me. But he does notice it. I show smiles either way and will be happy when i forget about it and i laugh about it but im never really to bad about it. Yea... that's how i feel right now. I'm so nervous about meeting Jimin's parents and to add onto that I'm meeting the rest of BTS. I think I'm more nervous about Jimin's mom because I don't know how she feels about Black girls. When Jimin and I FaceTime with them, Everything is great and they are very supportive but I am still scared. Also Abbey has been acting weird and she has been saying rude things so I'm not really talking to her she's so rude and she also disrespects Jimin and one of my cousins who is super nice to everyone and a role model to others and I have a problem with that even though i stopped it some I am not friends with someone like that. My real best friends well 2 of them are Gigi Cicerl and Bella Wiset. Gigi stopped coming to this school unfortunately but we are still friends. I have known her since 6th grade. We talk everyday about. Bella I have known since 2nd grade. She is one of the kindest people I have ever met. She is homeschooled now but we still talk. I really want to meet with them. Jimin has talked to Gigi and I've told Bella about him too. I'm hoping for them to meet soon.

~at my families house~
One message from 🤠💜😍Jimin🥰💜🦄
Jimin: I heard about your dog. Are you ok baby?
Me: Im fine. Thanks. I really am not to sad about it yet.
Jimin: It's ok.
Me: I know.. I miss him tho.  I just need something to get him off my mind ya know.
Jimin: Ok. I hope u will feel better. How are ur parents doing?
Me: My dad seems ok. He still calls his name. My moms taking it a little tough but she's not crying anymore. The other two dogs wouldn't eat the first 2 days but they are now.
Jimin: good. I'll see u later ok babe?
Me: Ok baby. I 💜 u
Jimin:😉😘💜🥰i love u too

~later that day~with jimin waiting to go and pick up BTS and his parents from the airport.
Jimin I'm scared.
It's ok Nicole.
*he puffs his chest out and holds onto me tighter.*
What happened Jiminie?
Nothing it's ok baby girl don't worry.
Ok Jimin.
*He stiffened his jaw and looked up again with a serious look and put his hand in a fist by my hand.
I placed my  palm flatly onto his fingers to get him to hold my hand and then after he did I intertwined our fingers together tightly.*
~Jimin POV~
*thinks* There's this guy eyefucking Nicole and I want to beat his ass but I have to be a good person so that I can keep my good image and more importantly protect Nicole.
So i puff my chest and stiffen my jaw and give him a death glare. He gets the picture and walks away. *
Babygirl they will be getting off the plane in 5 minutes.
Chimin min I'm scared.
(Author: il my nickname for Jimin i came up with i also made up one for jungkook and yoongi)
It'll be alright baby they will love you.
Really Jimin?
Yes Nicole really.
*5 minutes later*
Everyone is off the plane. Let's go meet them.
Ok let's go.
Are you excited?
*nods*
Yea.
*jimin giggles*

When we meet with the rest of BTS and Jimin's parents.
Nicole: Hello everyone it's very nice to meet you all in person. How was your flight?
Eomma: Our flight was perfect thanks for asking.
Nicole: It's the least I could do.
Eomma: By the way you can just call me Eomma.
Nicole: Yes ok Eomma.
Appa: Ahhh how pleasant and beautiful our future daughter-in-law is. Jimin hasn't been giving you any trouble has he? Just call me appa.
Nicole: *blushes and giggles* no sir appa thank you
Namjoon: It's nice to meet you in person Nicole. Jimin you hit the jackpot.
Jimin: I know. *giggles and hits him on the arm playfully*
Namjoon: oww
Jimin: sorry
Nicole: Nice to meet you too.
Jin: Hi Nicole it's nice to finally meet you in person.
Nicole: Hi jin same here.
Yoongi: Hello how are you?
Nicole: I'm great yoonz and you?
Yoongi: I'm good thanks.
Nicole: no probs.
Nicole: Ok everyone Jimin and i have a gift for all of you. Here are schedules for everyone and to see what we will do but all you have to do is decide what to do first and then we can go do it.
Jimin: I think everyone is hungry so do y'all want to eat first?
Everyone: Food! Perfect! Yes, I'm starving!
Jimin: I guess we know now. Do you all want to eat Korean, Italian, French, American, or Fusion.
Jimin's mom: Whatever is fine.
Jin: Can we eat Korean?
Nicole: Is everyone ok with that?
Everyone: Yeah.
Nicole: Korean it is then.

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