Undecided to Understand

Chapter 1

Victoria P.O.V

As I was growing up , there was no such thing as 'having it all' , or being 'spoiled'. When the kids used to talk about it at school , I had no clue .
" Madison , what does it mean to be spoiled ?" I asked confusedly.
"Girl , it just means that anything you ask for , you can get that shit with no hesitation, ya feel me ?"
I nodded as if I understood , knowing I didn't . But I , Victoria , do not ask a lot of questions .
" Alright class , these assignments I am handing out are due on Friday . It is Monday so there should be no excuse as to why you don't have them done . You have enough time to do them , take pictures , lose them , ask for a copy and do them all over again . No excuses . I won't extend the date . If they're not on my desk by the end of class , you will have a zero. No extensions . Have a great weekend." Mrs . Monroe said .
For some reason , knowing the fact I HAVE to go home devastated me . Summers were the worst . Growing up , I was always beaten for things my younger siblings would do. Mostly by my father , and only by my mother when my father physically made her . He was abusive in all the ways you could understand . I can't wait until I turn 18 so I can leave . I have been saying that in the back of my head for forever and eternity . But now the day is only a couple of weeks and so is my graduation. My parents have never been proud of anything I ever accomplished . Whether it was I brought home straight A's every year , when I won the 'Little Scientist' competition in the State of Arizona , or the many spelling bees I've won . They never attended anything for me , so I wouldn't be surprised if when I graduated in a couple of weeks and didn't see their faces in the crowd. But , I was brought into this world alone , and that's how I will be leaving , so whats the point of caring if anyone will be there for me .
"Bitchhh , get your shit together let's gooo we're going to miss out on getting our nails donne!" , Madison said .
" Girl , just take me home , I don't even have any money" I said chuckling while really feeling depressed deep down .
" Did I ask if you had any money? If I'm getting my nails done , then so is my bestfriend. Whether you have money or not , I'm going to look out for you regardless."
I smiled . This is why I love Madison. She knows every part of what I've been through . The good and the not so good . She has attended everything that was important to me . She's bought me more than my own family ever has . For that, I will always love her , be forever greatful , and someday I hope that I can return the favor.
We left the school house and walked towards Madison's car. While talking and laughing our conversation was interrupted by two girls who were arguing very loudly that escalated into them fighting near Madison's car. A girl named Kenyatta and one named Kameisha . They both slammed into Madison's car while pulling one another's hair. I shook my head.
" You bitches better take that shit somewhere else , cause if you break something on this car , I'm going to fight both of ya'll!" Madison yelled as she hurried over to the two girls and broke them up and pushed shooed them off.
"This is not the place ladies , classy not trashy!" She yelled and giggled as they walked away still arguing with one another .
I laughed because Madison is a damn fool.
"Girl , how the hell are you going to say that knowing you beat Jessica's ass in the bathroom last Friday."
I said laughing.
"Bitch , that was in private no teachers seen us"
She said laughing.
We got into the car and drove to Willington Mall to get our nails done. We went inside and started browsing through the mall.
" Girl , look at the man over there , he is so fi-i-i-neee." ,she said. I raised my eyebrows .
"Keep your eyes forward huntyy , you have a whole man." , I said.
"Bitch and. What he don't know won't hurt him." She said.
"Alright bitch that shit gone catch up with you one day." I said chuckling.
"And the day it do , I'll be glad to sit my ass downn, but until then sis ? I'm fixing to go get his number ." She said strutting over to him.
I smiled and kept walking and browsing . Looking at all the things I wish I could've received as a child , but never did . I wish I could have gotten birthday parties when I was younger , presents on Christmas or any of the other things normals kids my age back then would have done.
My thoughts were interrupted when my bestfriend loudly came bashing back in my ear.
" Bitchhh!!" She said as she waved a paper in my face.
" What is that?" I said shooing her out of my face and popping her hands .
"His number bitch , what you thought I went over there for . To ask where he got his shoe laces from ? Noo bitch , I got them diggitttss!!"  She said proudly.
My bestfriend is a hoe . I won't even try to attempt to sugar coat it. Her boyfriend seems like a nice guy , but it's none of my business what they have going on.
We walked to get our nails done. She got her coffin shaped french tips like always and I got a maroon colored french tip. I have never had my nails done professionally, I only had them done at home , by me. I have had a job for 2 years now , but every check I make , every penny I bust my ass for , goes to bills . I wish they never even knew I had a job in the first place. Then again , the long hours I work , they'd think I was out having sex or selling myself. I have heard that accusation many many times , when I'm still a virgin and don't even know what the sensation of a penis feels like .
As me and Madison walked out of the mall , she was typing away on her phone . The guy she just met wt the mall is my greatest guess.
" Girl Chad has a way with wordss!" She said .
"Who's that? Mall Guy?" , I answered.
"Girl yes , who else ?" She said chuckling.
" I don't know hoe , maybe your boyfriend?" I said punching her in the arm.
We got into her car and she took me home first.
Looking at her as she was texting while driving made me blurt, " Damn bitch , Chad can wait , our lives can't !" I said as I snatched her phone away and sat on it .
" You motherfucker." She said grinning.
We drove home listening to Cardi B , her favorite artist.
" I know how to get a baaag , don't I , I know how to make a bitch maad don't I , make my ex wanna get it baack that's a fact say it louder for the bitches in the back!" She yelled while driving .
She pulled into my driveway.
"Well alright bitch text me over the weekend if you wanna hang out" , she said as I got out.
" Okay I love you , drive safe." I said.
"I love you more bitch." She said driving away.
I walked up my driveway and went inside.
" Where the hell have you been. Don't you know how to contact someone?" My dad said.
" Sorry I was at the mall with Madison."
"With what money?! Any money you have , we need it . Money is tight around here Vic and you know that."
"Yes papa I know . I didn't buy anything , Maddy did."
"Hmph." He said as he turned back to his game on TV.
I went upstairs to my room and threw my bookbag on the floor and collapsed on my bed. I was so exhausted , I fell right asleep.