Atelophobia

"Memories"

Jess's P.O.V.

We've been in L.A. for a little over six months. We left Oregon  when we planned and everything was on schedule. Our parents never saw it coming.  We left a note explaining our reasoning for leaving and understanding the consequences. We explained we needed and wanted an education and to experience life outside of our home.

Our friend bought our one way tickets at an Internet Cafe in town in exchange for cash.  The next week we were out. When we first got here we had no idea what life was going to be like but we had a plan. The first thing we did was find a place to live. With enough money saved up from working at our local bait shop back in Oregon and nothing to spend it on we were set up for a little while while we found jobs.  We we're walking down by the board walk and saw a man put out a "For Rent" sign.

We took it as a sign and got the courage to speak to him. He was an older gentleman, his wife has just passed and he wanted to get out of the condo they shared. We sat and talked to him with his yellow lab for a couple of hours sharing our stories. He agreed to let us stay and we signed a lease with him that day.

Through the next couple of weeks I auditioned to be a singer at a local bar, Charlie got chosen to be an apprentice for a well renowned tattoo artist, and Rylie got signed up for Cosmetology school. Everything seemed to be falling into place.

But there has always been something missing. Something we never talk about. The guys. There is always that awkward question in the air of did we do the right thing? Which brings me to about a month ago.

One night after I sang in the bar a local producer told me I was too good to be singing in a bar like that one. He gave me his card and told me to come do a demo for him.  A week later I did and the week after that I got set up with my band and we were recording our first single.

Right after we dropped the whole album and I downloaded Twitter and posted on Instagram to tell my followers that it was available; Danny Lane followed me on all social media platforms. I freaked. He had gotten so handsome and I didn't know how to handle it. So the girls and I stalked all of them on Twitter.

First of all, that was a mistake. Because we got to see their hook ups and read the stories and see pictures that literally ripped my heart to shreds. Second of all right, after Danny followed me he followed Riley and Charlie as well and then Nicky and Jesse followed. It was obvious they had just been waiting for the day we all made our Twitter pages.  We didn't give them the satisfaction of following them back however.

This still leaves the question of the year.

Did we do the right thing?Are we doing the right thing?