You want me dead d.t

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Hey

U know how life is a challenge or test but I know my life is hell thats because I'm blessed with abusive parents, sibling, people at school, and crush

I'm 15 and starting junior year in high school

It's hell I hate school I hate home I hate life
And I hate myself for being the way I am ...

I was thinking about the blood running down my wrist
When I press the blade onto my skin

It feels so good
It makes me feel free
It makes me feel closer to freedom

I'm ugly

I'm trans

I'm disgusting

I'm a slut

I'm a whore

But the thing is all this is not true

I may be stupid but not a whore or slut
I never had a boyfriend
Never sex
Never my first kiss
Nothing

I don't understand it

There so many girl that sell their bodies or just want sex

But that's not me...

I'm scared of tomorrow

Tomorrow is my first day in junior year

I'm going to see my bullies
The Dolan twins

(Before I could thing more I got cut off by my mom screaming at me )

"Ugly bitch get your disgusting ass down here"she screams

"Ok" i mumble

I'm scared what going to happen

I walk slowly the stairs down and see my mother with a belt in her hand and my dad with crossed hand in-front of the stairs

I don't make eye contact so I don't get a beating

As I step down the last step my dad pulled me by my hair and I land face straight to the floor

Tears streaming down my face as I try to stand up

My mom pulled my head back by my hair and says
"Why aren't you dead yet"
I was just looking at the ceiling
As soon as I get out of the grip
I run the stairs up and lock my self in my room
I can hear my parents banging on the door and I see it slowly breaking
I run to the window and jump the 2 meters down

I land on my knees and whimper in pain

I stand up and start running

At all I could think of was run and don't stop

After 20 minutes of running I came to a stop

I unlock my phone and look at the time it was
8:23
Sunday
September 6

As I look back up my phone I bump into a hard figure
And fall to floor

I look up the buff figure in front of me

And be faced with Grayson Dolan

I started shacking
And quietly saying sorry
He doesn't answer just slap me right across the face

I look up to his eyes and see them red and puffy just as mine but only that my face is bruised and has cuts all over it