I wake up, check my surroundings and find I am alone in the dark.
My head and body hurt, my lip is swollen and torn swollen and I feel dirty and disgusting. I have the feeling like bugs are moving under my skin.
The first 2 seconds I am in a state of confusion as to what happened then a slideshow comes of what happened comes back to me. I stuff my fist in my mouth and I cry. I slide down the wall to a squatting position. One fist hits the skin over my heart in a repetitive motion, my entire body trembles and I feel violated over and over again.
I stand up and limp to my bag where I pull out my phone and see it 8:17pm and I have missed calls and messages from mama asking where I am.
I call mama and she picks up on the first ring screaming,"what do you think you are doing young lady, I am the wrong one, where are you right now? get home," "mama," I say on a sob and she goes quiet, I know she can feel something's wrong.
"Oh baby, where are you? I will come pick you up right now?" " At school near the pitch by the wall," I tell her and she tells me to stay hidden cause she is on her way.
After what seems like forever, she turns up and when she sees me she starts to whimper and wring her hands and I can tell it's because she feels helpless. As soon as she reaches near me I shift myself involuntarily out of her arms reach and she begins to wall and I start to rock myself forwards and backwards.
I can't even process the feeling of invasion I feel and I feel like jumping out of my body to get a reprieve.
My mom stars to quote different scripture and she falls to All fours and starts to crawl towards me. She touches my hand tentatively and when she sees her touch is welcome, she pulls me into her arms and I finally let loose a wail which sounds like the wail of an animal caught in a trap.
When my father died I thought no pain would ever surpass it but in this moment that pain pales to utter insignificance.
She pulls us up, gets my backpack and takes me to our car..
She drives us to the hospital and I can hear her and granny talk over the car speakers about how She found me and how I am not doing ok.
Her and granny talk for a few more seconds before they call off.
We get to the hospital and my mom asks for a rape kit and a general examination to be done including blood tests.
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The Sun does Shine
Narrativa generaleDeborah is the oldest daughter of a single mother. They are one tight and close-knit family. They work hard to make their life work and all this comes to an end due to 1 event. This event causes Deborah's family to fall to the bottom before they c...
