I found this. I forgot I did this. Kinda cool huh. Anyway I just felt like I needed to do this.
I told you I had a hard time putting the good above the bad. And that's true. But after reading this, I remember all the good. And damn it was really good.
You really are the only thing that makes me feel safe. I've never felt wanted before. But just knowing that you want to make things work for me means the world. You are a ray of sunshine in this shitty as world.
And yeah I brought some things up that I wish I hadn't. That being said, it was a good thing. Ita better to fix things now instead of in a couple years when it's harder.
Everything I have written here is 100% true. I do see a future with you. And yeah somewhere along the way I forgot that. But I remember. I want that damn wedding with my fluffy ass dress that you will be stepping on while we are trying to slow dance. (Also let's just say screw it to tradition and swing dance hehe)
But that's not the point. It may be hard but I am willing to fight for this. For us. I love you. And you are my lobster. (Also I don't want you to find a new lobster. Sue me. You're mine)
I want to dance the night away at prom. It want to suffocate in my dress. I want to be there for your graduation and take an awful video of you giving your advisory teacher an awkward hug. I want to hold your hand after you graduate college. I want to be there when we cant figure out to do with out lives after college. I want to grow old with you in rocking chairs.
So if you want are willing to, let's give this another shot. Let's work together to figure everything out.
I love you
