I feel calm
I feel comfortable
I feel loved
But I also feel lost
I feel confused
I feel SAD
I want to make her happy
I want to try my best
I want to be happy
But sometimes I feel insecure
She makes me happy
She makes me feel loved
But also makes me feel feelings I can't explain and it hurts
I love her
But
Sometimes I feel like she doesn't love me as much as I love her
I want to be with her forever and anything I do wrong this love I've developed could be crushed
And the blade that digs deep into my skin could come back
I'm trying to stop
For her
I'm trying to smile
For her
I'm trying
And I won't stop till she is happy
Even if that means I'm not
I will wear makeup if she likes it
I will wear nice clothes if she likes it
I will act different if she likes it
I will kill myself....
If she wants it
But she does not
And I love her
But I struggle to love myself
Am I useless?
Yes
But I'm sorry
"I cut for attention"
"I have no reason to cut"
But do I?
"I am two scared to kill myself"
What if I held a blade to my skin and bled to death?
When they find my dead body and say "she did it"
And my friends will regret saying I'm two scared to kill my self
I hide my sadness for the happiness of others but inside... I want to die
I want to sleep
And never wake up
