If Only He Knew

Chapter One

Dave's POV;

Everything about him is perfect. His smile, his laugh, his voice, his personality, everything. He's gorgeous. Everything about him is beautiful. He's amazing. He's everything I want, but I'll never have him. His name is Kurt Cobain. He's truly stunning. He has blue eyes that are absolutely beautiful. Dirty blonde hair that is just above his shoulders. He plays guitar and sings. I wish he was mine. But I don't deserve him anyway. I'm just some dumb drummer. Besides, he has a girlfriend. Courtney Love. She ruins everything. She's always in my way. I try to talk to Kurt, but then she pulls him away from me.

I hate her, and I think she hates me. She acts so nice, but I know she's evil. But of course, Kurt doesn't agree with me. He apparently "loves" her. I hate it when she flirts with him and kisses him. It makes me want to slap her face off. Also, usually, she's high or drunk or something.

But here we are now, sitting in the music studio, putting everything back up. We go on tour in I think two weeks. And I swear if Courtney comes I will probably end up smothering her with a pillow.

Speaking of the hoe, here she comes right now. I gritted my teeth as she gently kissed Kurt's lips. She looked up at me and smiled sweetly. Probably a fake smile.

"So, Kurt, how long do you think you're gonna be?" She asked as she twirled her fingers in his hair.

"I have to put my guitar in the case and then I'm done." He said in his raspy voice. I sighed and stared at him. He's so beautiful. I'll never find anyone else like him.

"I really missed you babe." She said wrapping her arms around him. I looked down at my feet and sighed. I wanted to scream and then kill myself.

"Yeah. You too." I heard him say and then I heard his guitar case shut.

"Well, I'll see you guys later." Kurt said waving to me and Krist. I watched as he left.

"What's wrong man? You look like you're about to kill someone." Krist said as he sat beside me.

"Nothing. I just don't feel good." I lied.

"Oh, well, maybe you should go home and lay down." Krist said. I nodded.

"Yeah. I'll see you later, Krist."

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I laid in bed and cried for hours. Stupid Courtney just had to take Kurt from me. Why does my life have to be like this? Why do I have to fall in love with a boy who already loves someone else?

I feel so pissed and depressed. My life sucks.