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I got home from another horrible day at school, another day of beatings, name calling, no lunch and being late to class. Hi I'm Chelsea May and I'm the schools loser and I have no friends, I'm known by a bunch of names and none of them are nice to begin with. "Can you believe it Bring Me the Horizon is gonna be performing tonight at the Manchester arena" I over heard someone say. No one told me Oli was in town and I mean not like they would anyway, he has his own life and it's more exciting than mine. Do I have a crush on Oli well that's up for debate because I've known him since I was 11 and I'm now 18 and Oli is older than me.

He's dating Hannah and I don't like her, I know she's cheated on him and yet they've been together for a year married. Why I know she's cheating well she was over at the house once and at 1am i went to the kitchen to get some water and i walked in to her kissing another guy. Did I ever tell Oli well no I didn't, does that make me a bad person well it's none of my business. I went upstairs to my room and threw my bag into my closet. I scrolled through social media and I saw photos on Oli's account on Instagram. "Chelsea come down please there's visitors" I heard mum say, "I'm busy" I replied and that would normally work. "Come on you'll love to see who's here" Mum called and I rolled my eyes. Will I really because do i ever like socialising, well no I don't.

I shoved my hair into a messy bun and changed my sweater before kicking off my shoes and running downstairs. I got half way down the stairs and my face grew into a smile when i recognised the voices. It was Oli and sadly his wife who was a slut, "OLI!" I yelled as I ran up to him. "Hey Chelsea!" He said as he caught me and swung me around in a hug, "I missed you" he said and i giggled. "That's the biggest lie I've ever heard" I laughed and he fake gasped even though to me it was true and I wasn't joking.

He put me down and then Mum said me and Oli should go catch up and Hannah said she'd help mum out. We went up to my room and sat on the bed with the door closed, "So what's been going on?" Oli asked. "You know school" I answered and he looked at me questioningly, "is something wrong?" he asked. "no" i said even though there was plenty wrong, "you used to wear short sleeve shirts and now they're longer" Oli said as he reached over to hold my hand closest to him. "It's cold" I said and he sighed, "Chelsea it's 37 degrees outside how is it cold" he said and I shrugged. "Chelsea you're not telling me something" he said and I removed my hand away from him. "I've gotta go to the bathroom, be right back" I said and I hopped off the bed and went to the bathroom locking the door. I leaned up against the door and buried my face in my hands, I silently cried and looked around the room with my eyes blurred by my tears.

Trigger Warning!!

I went to the bathroom cupboard and got out a blade from a new pack, I stared at the little shiny piece of metal. I shakingly pulled up my sleeve and glided the sharp metal against my skin, I hissed in pain quietly until eventually I couldn't feel it. I took in a gasp of air and made another cut when there was a knock, "Chelsea are you okay in there?" he asked.

"Yea I'm fine" I lied as I finished my final cut and turned on the water letting it run, I rinsed my arm and wrapped it before cleaning up the mess and pulling my sleeve back down. I washed my face and dried it before heading back out seeing Oli standing at the door.

End of trigger warning!!

"Yea I'm fine" I lied to him and he shook his head, "Chelsea what's wrong?" he asked again. "Oli I'm- " I went to say when I was interrupted by an annoying voice. "Babe and um you, food's ready" Hannah said, "we'll be right down" Oli said and off she went. "We'll talk about this after" he said and I shook my head, "Chelsea" he said sternly and I sighed before following him downstairs for afternoon tea.