To Be Brave √

Chapter 4

Heartbreak, When your heart is broken it can feel like the end of the world, like no amount of pain has ever felt so agonizing or concentrated. It's like a giant hole was pummeled into your chest, with no hope of repair. You cry you scream yet nothing seems to smooth your heartbreak or soothe the longing you feel.

I was heartbroken when the morning came. Distraught. Devastated. Yet smiling for the sake of my mother who was looking forward to meeting the one for me, Rafael. How ironic!

I didn't wish to go. I swear I didn't but I didn't have the guts to refuse and so I went with Rafe.

You can call me silly. You can call me scared, stupid, anything because I know I am and I deserve to be called so.

But for once place your feet into my shoes, or rather heels because dressing up is mandatory when you are going to hang out or what people like to call a 'date' especially only when it is 'a girl and a boy'.

So yes, place your feet into my heels look me into my eyes and say that you would have been brave and would not have done exactly what I did.

I wouldn't believe you.

Rafael was a sweetheart, he tried his best to make me feel special but I couldn't. I couldn't even muster a smile for the sake of his efforts.

In the end, he asked me if I wanted to go out again. I was surprised. I am sure he must have not enjoyed my company in the least with me being in a despicable mood and yet here he was looking at me with an adorable smile that could maybe wipe off all the girls in the world off their feet, except me.

And I just couldn't bring myself to lead him on which was apparently my speciality. So I told him...

..everything.

"Rafael, you are a good guy but not for me. I am not into boys"

"What do you mean Dase?" He asked.

"I mean I am into girls"

I waited for him to laugh to ridicule or mock me but it didn't come. I was even more surprised by what he did next.

He pulled me towards him and engulfed my frail body into a bear-sized hug. The kind where you let all of your walls down and where you are just so thankful for the person next to you, for being there.

That was when a true friendship was born between us two. I could feel it.

He let me cry and pour out all my sorrows, my story. All the stuff that had been bottled inside for days and weeks came out one by one.

He let me finish crying and then wiped off my tears.

"You are who you are Daisy and you definitely don't need to feel sorry about it. It's not a crime to be a lesbian"

I cringed at the 'word'.

Rafeal took a deep breath.

"Daisy, you are the most beautiful person I've ever laid my eyes on both inside and outside. And you are the last person who should hide from your true self. Being a lesbian is not wrong and if people think that being who you are is wrong then fu*k them."

"Promise me, Daisy, promise me that you shan't hide"

"Promise me that you'll be who you are and not deny your feelings anymore"

The way he said it. It made me want to believe. Believe that there was a chance after all. That being who I am was not committing a sin. He made me believe in all Naomi had said and I realized that she was right.

"I needed this Rafe, thank you"

"Anytime for the girl of my dreams" I blushed at his shameless comment. After all, that was Rafael for you, deadly serious to the master of flirting in less than a  second.

"At least I can make you blush. What are you going to do now Daisy?"

"Go after Naomi of course. I am ready to beg her to trust me again" I said getting up but Rafael held on to my hand.

"No, you shall not do anything of that sort"

"What do you mean? You were the one to suggest it in the first place"

"No, you need to sort out your issues first. Your mom, Jakey and Reece. You owe it to Naomi to bring it all out in the open, Daisy. You owe it to her to tell them and make them understand your feelings or you don't deserve another chance. Do it right this time. Make me proud."

I nodded my head and hugged him. He was right as always.

Why hadn't I gone to Rafeal Whitmore in the first place?

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An overdose of dramatic dialogues?

😂

Ya, I know.

Rafeal is an angel.

Dedicate a song for this chapter

And one for Rafael

:)

This was always supposed to be a teeny weeny book.

So hope you enjoyed the second last chapter.

❤

I need a trophy right now!!
I am about to complete a book(other than like a pro ofc)

Much love,
Ario_Star