I woke up having a feeling i never really felt before. I was feeling sad and depressed and worried! I was thinking, (what if he does make the X-Factor! he wont want to be friends with a non-famous person or a nobody. He would make new friends and I would just be history). When i went outside after lunch i saw him playing his guitar, i slowly walked away, but i guess he saw me because he said, "HEY"! I couldn't ignore him because that would be rude, so i said hey back and went over to him.
He started saying something, "why were you..." i blanked out. He snapped in my face, i said, "what"? "why were you walking away from me"? he said. I didn't want to tell him the real reason, so i just went with a general statement and said i was going on a walk. He didn't look like he believed me but whatever, i moved on and asked him what he is doing? He said, "well its a beautiful sunny day, a great day to write music, so i thought i should write some lyrics outside". "oh, cool." I said. Then he asked me why i was going on a walk? I said i couldn't stay in the house all day. After a while he looked like he was curious about something, like why i was being different around him. I could see it in his facial expression, so that's when i said i was gonna go home. He said, "OK", and went on writing lyrics.
When i got in my room i jumped on my bed, not knowing what to do or say to him of what I'm really feeling. Yes he needs to know how i feel if he does make the X-Factor, but i also got to think about what he really wants to do. If he really wants to be my friend he wont do it, but then again he can become a singer and still be my friend and get made fun of because of being a famous person and being friends with a nobody!
After a long time thinking i made up my mind. I have to tell him how i would feel if he makes the X-Factor, so i was thinking that tomorrow i should confess and just deal with what he is going to say, iv'e actually got some stuff in mind, like him saying, "what the hell is wrong with you! just because i might become a singer doesn't mean i won't be your friend!", or " I can't believe I'm listening to this, you are out of your damn mind if you think I'm going to end our friendship just because i might become famous"! So lets hope for none of those response's.
