Two nights and three days are full of suffering, hatred, regret, and hurt. I am lost, empty and broken. All I want to do right now is to escape from this entire fuck*ng feelings. Since the day I knew the whole damn story it feels like hell. Hell for those people who play to my innocent heart. And now that I am lost, he wins to his own play.
I found myself lying on my bed and still crying.
Before, all I knew is that once you fall, everything turns perfect especially when that person falls for you too. It feels like you’re in a cloud nine and wishing that it would never stop. But after all, it was a MISTAKE. Loving him was a wrong choice.
It hurts to think that the only one you love was the one who hurt you most. It’s feel like dying inside, little by little. I give all to him to the point that there’s nothing left of me.
The all thing I knew is that my dad entered to my room and sitting beside me.
I don’t know the real story princess, I don’t know how to lessen the pain inside your heart but all I know is that I am here for you and ready to listen. -dad
After those words I heard mas lalo akong naiyak. He always know how to comfort me at bigla ko siyang niyakap. What a best dad. My dad always call me a princess.
Dad nagmahal lang naman ako pero bakit ako nasasaktan? I am fooled. I said in a low voice but enough for him to hear me.
Hmmm please don’t say that my little princess. Kaya ka nga nasasaktan kase nagmamahal ka. Dumadating talaga yan sa buhay ng tao. All you need to do is to be strong. Can you please stop crying? I also hurt every time you cry. Pakiramdam ko hindi ko naaalagaan ang kaisa isahang prinsesa ng buhay ko. So what’s your plan? Daddy said with a smiling face while brushing my hair through his hands while lying in his lap.
I didn’t say anything or maybe I'm not in the mood to tell the story to him because until now I’m lost every time I remember that. All I want is to hear his comforting words for me.
I dunno. Revenge maybe? I said in a boring mode habang nakatingin sa taas ng kisame.
Revenge? He said in a full of questions to me. I see in his eyes that it is not a good idea anymore. But what shall I do? Yun lang ung tanging alam ko para makapaghiganti sa taong nanakit saken.
Well I know you’re in pain right now kaya mo nasasabi yang ganyan bagay. But I am strongly object to your plans. Revenge is not a good idea anymore. You also hurt yourself if you will continue it. Sabi ko na nga ba, at yun yung sasabihin ni daddy saken, sana pala di ko na lang sinabi.
Princess, the best revenge is just moving on and getting over it. Don’t give someone the satisfaction of watching you suffer. Well, I think it’s the right time to move on and let go of the past. Daddy said.
After what I heard, I am now enlighten to his words. Daddy knows what the best for me. His only person that I need especially when the time comes like this. That’s why I really love him.
I nodded then. As a sign of accepting his words.
Sorry dad for being weak, sorry for hurting you every time I cry because of pain. And thank you because you’re always there for me no matter what. Thank you for your words. And thank you for everything dad. You’re the best. I love you. And now I know what I shall do, it’s about the right time to move on and forget the past. I said to him habang nagbabadya ang mga luha sa aking mga mata.
That’s my princess. I’m happy that you listen to me. Always remember that all I want for you is to be happy and safe. Ok? Tama na ang pagmumukmok. Stand there and let’s eat dinner. I’ll wait you in the kitchen. He said and kissed my forehead while waiting to my response.
Ok po. Just give me 15 minutes para makapag ayos ng sarili. I said and smiled. Then, he left my room already.
Daddy’s right. There’s nothing happen if I let myself suffer from the pain he left. I need to let go and move on. But moving on doesn’t mean forgiveness and forgetting what happened.
