Sex addicts

12: Diary

Megs POV

I wake up to Luke's little snores and his arms tightly around my waist and our legs entwined. I don't even know how we always fall asleep together but we do. I was thinking whilst staring at the ceiling. I haven't seen Em for months. We used to see each-others everyday and we were each-others best friends.

That's it, I'm going to take Luke to see her with me, maybe Ashton could come. Me and Ash are really close and Luke always used to get jealous before they met each other now they're really close friends which I love. I unattached his arms from my waist and tiptoed to the bathroom.

As I walked back into the bedroom from my shower. I got changed, blue jeans, a black crop top and my black high top converse.

When I turned around Luke was staring at me.

"Where are we going today beautiful?" he winked.

Even though he just woke up he still looks gorgeous.

"Can you come see Em with me?"

"Yeah sure babe let me just have a shower and get changed" he said whilst getting out of bed.

"Okay, I'll just be downstairs making us breakfast". As I was making Luke's favourite food down stairs for his breakfast, I heard a massive thud over the music I was dancing around the kitchen to. I dropped the pan that the pancakes were cooking in and ran up the stairs.

As I burst through the door I see Luke, on the floor... reading? a book? "What are you doing?" I questioned, as I looked closer I realised it was my diary. "What the hell Luke?!" I shouted. I could see on his face how sorry he was, but why would he go through all this trouble to read what we've literally already discussed? He knew how hard it was for me to tell him about my past yet he still went behind my back.

"Meg, I didn't mean to, I just saw it and I don't know I didn't think" He said with empathy.

"You have seriously got to be kidding me right now. I'm going out. I'll see you later" whilst grabbing my car keys, my purse and sunglasses I rushed out the door.  I got in my car, plugged in my AUX lead, put on Bring me the horizon and almost instantly started driving. I decided to go to the town centre, I haven't been shopping for a while.

I arrived in the town, being in the mood I am I couldn't deal without my headphones today so I plugged them into my phone and put Twenty One Pilots on full blast making sure to block everybody's voices away from my ear drums. I popped into Star bucks to get my usual large hot chocolate with cream. "What's your name?" The waiter, Lewis, asked me "Meg" I stated with a smile "Urm I know this is a bit far forward, but could I get your number?" Is this classed as cheating? Me and Luke aren't together? Yeah we say we love each other and so fore but were not official. "Yeah sure" I wrote my number on a napkin and put "Meg xo" next to it. Once I left Starbucks I went to Topshop, here I bought black shorts, a few tops and a couple pairs of jeans. I remembered that I needed to go to Schuh to buy some trainers, I also needed to look for some that I knew that Luke wanted.

I got to Schuh and found the trainers I wanted, they were old school vans, Luke wanted the same ones but the high top ones, so I bought them both. I know I'm mad right now, really mad, but I know how much he wanted them.

I realised I don't really need anything else from the town centre so I just started driving back to Luke's house. On my way back I saw a blonde disfigured body swaying from side to side on the path way. He was wearing a slipknot vest, a black beanie and tight black ripped jeans. That's Luke? What the hell?  I pulled up and rolled down the window.

"Luke!" I shouted, he jolted his head that hard towards me it looked like it was going to detach itself from his neck.

"Aha... What are youuuuuuuu doing heeeeeeere" He sang. He's drunk.. I've never seen Luke drunk, but this is awful.

"Luke, get in the car" I wasn't even angry any more, I just wanted to hug him.

"No no noooooooooooo Meg you angry at Lukeyyyy" He shouted.

"No I'm not Luke, just please get in" I literally begged him.

Why has he got drunk? It's 4pm? Luke eventually got himself in my car.

"Here, drink this and sober up" I said whilst passing him the bottle of smart water. "Were going to see Em, it's a hours drive any way so you have enough time to get your act together" I stated sternly. If he does this every time we have an argument I will not be able to deal with him.