born someone else

chapter 1: the beginning

Amy always wondered why she was different from her sister. She wasn't like most girls, there was something different with her. She never was comfortable in her own body. She never wore girl's clothes or like anything having to do with being a girl. She was playing sports, wrestling with the boys, all her friends were boys. She was always attracted to woman. She thought being a lesbian was who she was til the first time she used a strap on a woman. It felt so natural to her. It wasn't two sided or a vibrator on it. For some reason, she get could get an orgasm from using it on a woman. She always wondered what it would be like to be a guy. She never said anything til one day her friend Rose brought up a weird topic. " Why do you like looking and acting like a guy?", she asked. "Idk. I am comfortable. I never felt right in girls clothes", I said. "Oh." A few minutes go by with silence. "Can I ask you a question without you getting mad?", she said nervously. "Sure". "Have you ever thought of being a guy?"

She never thought about it before. She didn't know what to say to her question. She sat in silence wondering what she meant. Rose could tell she was confused. "I want you to watch something. Might clear up what you are thinking and feeling.", she said getting up off the couch. She walked over to the DVD player and put a DVD. Amber couldn't see what it said on the front. "Ok", Amber said sounding a little worried. Rose chuckled. "It's not a bad movie. This would help you." She pressed play.
The movie was about a girl who looked like me. She told her story. How she never felt comfortable in her own body. How she was a tomboy when she was little. That she didn't like wearing dresses. She played all the physical contact sports. She loved cars and building stuff. She didn't look or act like a girl. She liked woman, but never felt comfortable with a woman touching her. How she was not feminine and acted and thought like a guy. How when people would call her a man or say sir she smiled and didn't correct them. It also followed her through her whole transition. It started off with her binding her breasts so she looked more like a guy. It also showed her wearing a packer to look more like a guy. The more I watched, the more I was interested. I can try binding and see how I feel. We watched the whole movie.
After the movie was over I was deep in thought. Rose could tell and didn't say anything. After about 10 minutes, she decided to break the silence. "So, what do you think about what I asked you after seeing the movie?" "I don't know. I feel the same way as that girl, but I never thought it could be because I am supposed to be a guy. I always thought transgendered meant female to male. I just don't know if it would solve anything." "Amy, listen to me. Trust me, you are miserable. Never know, it could be just what you need to be happy with yourself." "I don't even know how to start or anything." Well, start by doing some research. Then get a binder and a packer. Think about it. You know the only way you could get off is with a strap on. I know you wore it just to wear it a couple of times. You told me you were kind of happy just wearing it." "Rose!", I said giving her a look like I can't believe you just said that. "You think people would reject you? Honey let me tell you something. How could anyone reject you? You would be complete and so happy with yourself. I know you are scared. I am here for you through the whole thing." I just sat there just thinking about everything.
"Just think about it. How many girls have told you would be the perfect man? How many girls have left you because either you didn't have the right part or you wouldn't let the girl touch you? How do you feel when you are doing man things? Like building stuff? Or looking at old cars? Didn't you have a nickname people called you? I think it was AC. How happy you get when people call you instead of Amy?"

I didn't say anything. She was right. Right about everything. Maybe that's why I am miserable. I sat there and really started to think about everything. After about 10 minutes of deep thinking I saw Rose stand up from the chair. "I am going to go it's starting to get late. Think about what I said. I will call you tomorrow." I stood up to give her a hug. "Thank you for everything you do for me. You are the best friend anyone could ever ask for." "I just want to see you happy", she said as she was walking out the door. "I know you do and so do I for you. Have a good night." I shut the door and went over to the couch and sat down. I grabbed my phone and decided to call Jordan and see if she wanted to come over. Rose was my straight best friend and Jordan is my lesbian best friend.

"Hello?" "Jordan, it's AC, wanna come over? We can play on one of the systems?" "You got Call of Duty games?" "Got them all for both Xbox 360 and the ps3." "I will be right over. Going to pick up pizza and munchies. Be there in like a half hour." "Ok. See you soon. Later."