don't you just hate that feeling when you have a lump in your throat when your about to cry.
And people start asking if your alright.
And that's when you break down.
Then you just give up on everything
And then just end everything
Hoping anyone will notice you're gone
And see if they'll miss you or not
Because even you fell out with them a few times, they are still the only people you love
Even if they don't love you anymore
You will still love them no matter what
And you'll do anything for them to forgive you
Then the feeling feels like a last breath when they reject you
And then everything just goes wrong for you
Hoping you'll feel better...but it still won't happen
Then you just take everything out on other people
And then it happens, cuts on your arms and legs, hiding them so they won't notice you are dead inside
And when someone notices you try and make an excuse up
Saying "I'm just tired" , dry your tears, put on a fake smile
And carry on with your 'happy' life
With all the bullies and people thinking your alright
When in reality you cry yourself to sleep every night
You're sleeves are getting longer and longer, scared to go out alone
Scared to tell someone about your problems jus in case they judge you
Trying to smile when you wanna cry
Tired of crying
Then the day when you take your last breath..they finally notice...
And when they notice, they try and help you with everything but your just done...💔
Then the only thing you want is to be gone. Forever
To see if you'll be happier when you're gone
But you realize you just aren't supposed to be happy 💔
and tell yourself "why is it happening to me" 😔
But the only thing you need to remember is, that you're not alone in this
And then you just feel bad about all the other people who goes through this, too
And you feel like you are with them even though they are far far away
And you just pray for them that you'll always be there for them
Never felt worse
Feels like you've been stabbed in the heart 100 times
You gave your heart to someone and they just threw it away
And they gave their heart to someone else
They hardly know your name
And they just throw you about like a worthless toy
Even though you gave them everything
And they just used you
They were everything to you but you were nothing to them
And that's when your not sure to trust anyone again
So you hurt the person that truly liked you
And you never felt worse than ever
You feel so lonely and worthless
That you just wanna die
And when they say they'll kill you...you just don't care anymore
You'll just let them
But then they just changed their mind and let you feel worse..they don't kill you..they beat you up everyday
And that's when you just start cutting and cutting letting blood drip down on your hands
Until your gone
Forever.
And nothing can stop you from leaving anymore
You just lie there till you stop breathing
Thinking about the old times when you were happy
Wishing it could happen again
But no, it can't happen again, now it's just a dream for you
Hoping you wake up and everything was back to normal
But you are waking up realizing you are still alive.
and then you just cry and cry and cry
And everything happens again and again
And you start cutting again.
Hope you like it...
Written by; Nicole Nguyen and Lauren Cimorelli☺️
