"I Love You" ~ //BTS Oneshots

Heart Attack (NamJin)

*Warning*

Contains:
Song!AU
Very very short
Evident writer's block

Seokjin's POV

Puttin’ my defences up
'Cause I don’t wanna fall in love
If I ever did that, I think I’d have a heart attack

I sat down in front of my now ex boyfriend a smirk on my face as I watch it contort into a look of horror after I told him what I wanted to say

"What?" He says, I can hear the brokenness of his voice when it cracked. How fucking wonderful, we have a crier

"You heard what I said, let's break up" I told him again and he cried hysterically

"But I loved you! I gave you everything you ever wanted!" He yells and I only smirk at him

"But I didn't, sorry baby" I told him

Never put my love out on the line
Never said yes to the right guy
Never had trouble getting what I want
But when it comes to you, I’m never good enough

It's been a few days after my last fling and people are still not wary about my attitude, to see how truly dumb they are is fascinating. I love the fact that I haven't fallen in love yet I had many people fall for me

Blinded by this thing called love, so blinded that they gave me everything I wanted. I never had a problem getting whatever the hell I wanted, whether it be a new phone or a date at the most lavish restaurant in town

Until he came along.

When I don’t care, I can play 'em like a Ken doll
Won’t wash my hair, then make 'em bounce like a basketball

I was a player to put it bluntly, a heartbreaker per se. I was well known but that didn't stop people for falling at me left and right. I didn't care whenever I got into those relationships with people who confess to me, typical

I could go on a date with the person and act all cold, not give a damn on what I wear, what my hair looks like or even how I act. I can play with their hearts and break it with a single sentence

But you make me wanna act like a girl
Paint my nails and wear high heels, yes you
Make me so nervous, that I just can’t hold your hand

He ruined it all, and who is that he I talk about? Well it's none other than Kim Namjoon, the school's new student and bad boy. He was a few years younger than me and despite the rumors he's heard of me he still went for it and confessed to me

Now I had a fair share of dating bad boys, Min Yoongi being one of them. Now he's a close friend of mine but when we were dating I was indifferent to him, still not giving a damn and not liking him. It was for the better anyways, he found out he liked someone else

Kim Namjoon was an old friend of Yoongi so I decided why not and fuck with him like all the other people I dated, but fucking hell he was different. He didn't like being told what to do, he didn't like tolerating the fucked up shit I do. He made me submit to him to the point that I'm nervous to hold his hand because he made me change my ways

You make me glow,
But I cover up, won’t let it show,
So I’m puttin’ my defenses up
'Cause I don’t wanna fall in love
If I ever did that, I think I’d have a heart attack

He made me glow, he made me smile, he made my inside get fuzzy. I didn't want this to show though, so I covered it up. I refused to let myself fall in love. I watched how my father got broken down by love, I don't want to repeat the same thing

Never break a sweat for the other guys
When you come around, I get paralyzed
And every time I try to be myself
It comes out wrong like a cry for help

I sat down at lunch with Yoongi, Namjoon was still in class helping their teacher with something and I get pissed a bit because that teacher was hot, what if he was cheating on me? Yoongi seemed to pick up on my vibe because he questioned me

"Seokjin hyung, why are you acting like this? Don't tell me you're... jealous of Namjoon staying with their teacher?" He asks and I shake my head furiously making him laugh

"What's so funny, huh?!?!" I ask him and he laughs even more

"You'll see soon, hyung. I'll let you figure it out on your own, Hoseok's coming here with Joon right now" He says and I raise an eyebrow

"Joon? You've never called him that before. That's what I call him, only me. Got it?" I say and he laughs at me again

"Okay okay, Mr. Possessive. Hi Hobi" He says as he greets his boyfriend who ran to him and sat beside him

"Hi Joon" I say shyly and this makes him smile as he kisses my forehead, making me blush. Damn it

"Can we... can we go to Spring Nights? It- it opens tonight and well um..." I trail off and I curse myself for stuttering, why the hell did I stutter?

"Of course, baby. I'll pick you up at eight, wear something formal okay?" He asks and I nod shyly

Why the hell am I like this? Fuck

It’s just not fair
Pain’s more trouble than love is worth
I gasp for air
It feels so good, but you know it hurts

I cry into my pillow, not knowing what to do with my feelings. It hurts but it also feels good, it fucking confuses me. I don't know what to do, how to feel

The feelings got lost in my lungs
They’re burning, I’d rather be numb
And there’s no one else to blame
So scared I take off and I run
I’m flying too close to the sun
And I burst into flames

I hated this, I'd rather feel nothing than feel this burning sensation. I can't do anything about it and I'm scared. I was scared to fall in love, but I already fell and I don't know if he'll catch me

"Namjoon... let's break-" I was immediately shut up by him with a kiss

It felt so right but so wrong, already nearing our anniversary and everyone was already assuming that I'd break up with him. I kiss back and hopefully this proves something to him, that I'm willing to take the risk and be closer to my sun than ever before

《A/N》I'm so so sorry that this is so short, like I'm having a very hard time trying to think of AU's to do :(