Fuck.

2.

You left.
You said you would stay and you left.
Why?
You could have stayed longer.
You could have tried.
The least you could have done is tried.
You didn't though.
Why?
You promised so many things.
Yet you knew you couldn't keep them, didn't you?
They loved you.
I loved you.
And now you're gone.
Now I'm scared.
Scared to become you.
Is that what you wanted?
You were told to stop.
You could still be here.
But you didn't.
Why?
You knew you should have.
But you didn't.
Did you just think it wouldn't change anything?
You were already in such deep shit nothing could change it?
What about my birthday?
What about holidays?
What about all the times I need you?
The times they need you?
Did you ever stop, and think about us?
I know it's hard.
What you went through.
I could see.
They could see.
But it was hard to watch.
Knowing I couldn't do anything.
I had no control over whether you stayed or left.
Do you know how hard that is?
Of course you do.
You went though it too.
Then why didn't you stop sooner?
Realize sooner?
You could have prevented it from happening when it did.
I was too young.
She was too sad.
And her.
The woman you "loved."
You hurt her.
I found it too.
All because you didn't clear your phone.
You gave it to me.
Everything was still there.
Are you that fucking stupid?
Really.
Who is dumb enough to do that?
I guess a lot of people are.
You were smart.
Just made dumb decisions.
I loved you.
I still do.
But why?
Why didn't you try to save yourself?
Did you think you weren't worth saving?
You were to me.
I would have done so much.
Anything really.
Just to have you here with me.
But I guess.
It all happens for a reason.
It's alright.
I still love you.
Things might not have happened like we wish they did.
But it's fine.
Right?
~You Left But It's Fine... Right?