About my life, I guess

Cringe

Ich schreibe ja wirklich viel kitschige und Fremdscham erregende Scheisse, aber ich glaube, das hier ist grade mein cringigstes Meisterwerk:

I have decided that I want to watch the sunset with u once. Bc like I've never had anyone to share this with. I usually sit out here every evening, all summer, just listening to music and watching. It's always been the moments where I can forget about everything else and just enjoy that I'm alive for once. Sometimes I smile uncontrollably because it makes me so happy that after all, nature is beautiful and all will be good at one point, sometimes I cry because everything has just been too much and that's my few minutes where I can breathe and feel like it'll get better.
When I'm with friends, or even when I was with my exes, I could never really relax. I'm always fully concentrated on the person. There's five minutes of silence? We need to watch a movie. Just stay distracted.
With you, I feel like I can openly talk, but I also don't have to talk at all and can just exist for a while. And it isn't the bad kind of „just existing", it's that exact kind that I do when I sit outside alone and watch the sunset.

Listening to: Breathin - Acoustic by Adam Christopher