Here we go again. It must be this. It must be my insane and selfish figure that makes me feel this way. You haven't even talked to me in about a month except for the phone and I'm already getting ideas. Getting ideas of this. You only think of me as a friend and why THE FUCK would you think otherwise. What is wrong with me, why am I so impatient. Why do I get broken when you push me away. I go to hard anyway. Sometimes I just wonder why, why I continue to put myself in these awkward situations just to compliment you just for you to not understand. But you do, I just don't. Why wuanyae! Then you remind yourself of " wanting to give you the time of your life" and it sort of still stands. I just have a hard time being patient. Idiot. I just really don't want to give up on this. Because I know we both deserve it. But yet I'm as selfish as I can be. Why?
