Obnoxious Thoughts and Ungranted Wishes

a fan's heart

i love you
he whispered to the camera
not knowing, not aware
that a screen away
her heart filled up with the three words meant not only for her but for many

i lost
he sighed and bowed his head in defeat
thinking that it will be the last of him and the world would accept him no more
but miles away she wept too
for with him she lost and with him she died a little inside

i will be back
he was determined and confident
for he wanted to give his mother a better life
back to their old home, to where they belong
a home which is yet to exist
and she was there, still waiting, two nations and an internet connection away

i will survive this time
he fought his way to the top
with his mother in mind and his family as inspiration
with a team to save and another sweat to wipe
but she just in front of the television, supporting him through screams and whistles that only her neighborhood could hear

i won
he cried on stage with the prize of his win finally on his very own hands
a home to be built, a family to be shipped back, to be his strength
and there she was crying of joy, crying with him, one with his feelings

i want you to wait for me
he's dominating now, he's almost on the top of the mountain of victory
but challenges still get in his way
and a year or so must pass still
before he could finally show his lovely face to the world freely, happily

but forever may pass yet she'd still wait
for him who makes her heart burst with just one smile; him who makes her heart break with just a single tear that fell from his eye

for when he smiles
she smiles, too
and when he cries
she cries even harder

z.d.s.