Her House, My Rules

Chapter 13

Hide under the bed or Hide in the closet.

My mind fought my own ego, silently. My heart was racing like a vehicle. I was so nervous. Hazel's father was outside her bedroom and it was too late for me to go back in time. I was definitely in danger. I didn't care about the consequences, I just didn't want him to think that she broke up with Max because of me. I didn't want them to think the worst of me. Plus, I didn't want her parents to find out about my little game with her. I didn't want us to end this way. I wanted to keep fighting to make Hazel mine. I wanted to make sure that I was the man that she wanted to spend the rest of her life with. I was the man, I was the one she needed. I wanted to prove to her that I was more than a player and a liar. 

I was the man of her dreams.

Words couldn't explain how unlucky I felt when I heard her father's voice outside. He ruined everything, he took away her full attention and it was too late for my apologies. I just hated the fact that I didn't get to do anything when I was so ready to make my feelings spread all over her body. Life was selfish and unfair.

Hazel was in trouble because of me.

"I'll be there in a minute," Hazel yelled as she wore her red dress back. "Dad. Please, wait for me downstairs." his footsteps faded from a distance as I witnessed a total silence.

Just like that. He was already gone.

I was watching Hazel getting dressed and I was wondering if she forgave me or not. If my tongue passed her test just like last time. I didn't want to pressure her but at the same time, I wanted answers, I wanted her forgiveness. I didn't want to beg all over again. Hazel was worth it but I was getting tired of all these arguments and fights. I wanted a positive vibe. I wanted us to have a good time. I wanted her to be mine. I wanted to make love to her just like in the movies. I wanted to murder her body with my electric bomb penis.

Girls love that.

What if I did have an electric penis? Maybe I do.

"Hawk? I think it's time for you to leave now." Hazel interrupted my thoughts as she massacred my mind with her selfish weapon. "We'll talk another time." Her words were understandable but selfish.

Another time? Hazel, I want it to be now.

"So that's it?" I pointed out, trying to show her how ridiculous the conversation was. "You're not going to forgive me?" I placed my hands behind my back as I waited for her unknown answer.

"Hawk," She said, snippily. "It doesn't work like that. You can't just seduce me and expect me to forgive you right away. It takes time to earn someone's trust and it's not always in the bedroom." She snapped, vaguely. "Do you even like me?"

Yes, Hazel. With all my heart.

"Why are you so..." I stopped mid-sentence. "Do you even have to ask? You do know that I'm trying my best to make you mine. Hazel, can you forgive me?" I begged, impatiently.

"You didn't answer my question." she implied, sympathetically.

"Yes, I do. Hazel." I admitted. "I swear if you give me one last chance to prove it to you, I'll try my best to show you how serious I am about you."

"Hawk." My name was contagious in her tone. "I understand where you're coming from but I don't think it's a good idea. I don't want to open up to someone and look dumb at the end. I liked you, yes, I can't deny it but I really don't feel anything for you anymore. It was the past and my mind was playing tricks."

Her sharp words cut me off deeply. I was the only one who was falling in love. I was the only one who felt it. I was the only one who was fighting to gain our connection. Hazel was lying. I felt her feelings towards our kiss. She was kissing me like there was no tomorrow. She was feeling me. She liked me and I didn't know why she didn't want to admit the truth and forgive me.