The Roommate | zdh ✓

Twelve

EDITED 7.10.2020
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Everly's p.o.v

I lay under my sheets, as the morning shine creeps threw the curtains. How long have I been in my room for? It must have been a day or two. This isn't like me, I'm not weak, what am I doing? Nick didn't even do anything wrong, so why am I so sad? Zach even apologized for what he did, which came as a shock for me at first. Part of me knows what he said was real and genuine, but I still can't bring myself to forgive him. Not yet anyways.

As for Nick, I can't lie, my heart feels for him too. The pain in his eyes, I could feel him hurting as I went up and slapped him. I grimace as the memories of that night replay in my head.

"Wait, Everly, please. Don't believe her, I didn't do anything." His voice breaking at each word.

I slap him across the face, releasing some of my pain onto him. "How could you do this to me?"

In the end, although it wasn't true, part of me realized my feelings for him went away. I don't want want to be with him anymore. Yet I know I have to find him sometime this week, and let him know everything is okay between us–at least give him a call and telling him I know he didn't do anything wrong.

For some reason, ever since Zach confessed his feelings I have been questioning my own. Did I like Zach? I guess I never looked at him in that way until now, or I just chose to ignore it. Sure, that first day when I got here, I could tell he 'flirted' with me, but nothing ever came with it. I have to find him too, to know if I have actual feelings for him, or if it's all just in my head.

After taking a shower, I dress in clean clothes, and make myself look somewhat decent. I then make my way out of my room that I gave been isolating myself in, and out into the living room.

Ben is seated on the couch, watching "The Breakfast Club." A classic for sure. My eyes wander over the room, but Zach isn't to be seen. Where could he be? It's only 12pm, and classes are cancelled today because of the storm last night.

A cheerful voice came from the couch, and I turn to see Ben staring up at me.

"Hey, Eve. How are you feeling?" He asks.

I chuckle at the nickname he gave me a while ago. "I'm okay, Ben, thanks. Do you have any idea where Zach is?" I try to ask him without so much curiosity and worry in my voice, but fail completely as I notice him smiling slightly.

"He went out to grab some coffee. He said to tell you that he's bringing you one as well. That is if you were out of your room." He grins brightly, and I notice his smile is almost identical to Zach's.

Sometimes I forget that they were twins. They have some similar features, like the way they styled their hair, same smiles, about the same height, and both of their voices are equally low.

Ben pats a spot by him on the couch, and I smile as I make my way towards him. We watch the movie and a few others after. The movie, "10 Things I Hate About You" comes on. It's one of my favorites. Halfway in, Ben turns to me, and starts to talk. I can tell he is nervous, and I begin to worry.

"Eve, can I tell you something? It's about Nick." His voice comes out shaky.

"Of course." I reassure him by holding onto his hands that lay in his lap. They're cold as ice. I smile and say, "Ben, you can tell me anything."

I feel himself relax a bit, and he takes a small breath before he continues. "Well, I came to the party last night, after everything went down. I didn't know what the story was, but I saw Nick in the corner and away from everyone else. He was crying. For some reason, my gut told me to walk towards him. I spoke to him, and I actually made him feel better. Can you believe I had it in me?"

He looks at me, almost as if he expects me to be mad. I'm not, and nod for him to continue.

He clears his throat. "Anyways, I just wanted you to know that I spoke with him, and that we're good between us."

I notice a small blush appear on his cheeks, but it quickly fades away as he slightly shakes his head.

He then says, "We're kinda friends now."

I'm suprised, and smile big as Ben looks up at me with his sparkling brown eyes. "Is that okay? That I'm close with Nick?"

I grin and squeeze his hand. "Ben, of course it's okay! I know Nick didn't do anything wrong. I'm just surprised you two actually get along."

We both laugh, and I could tell Ben wanted to say something else, but we are interrupted by the front door opening. Zach comes in with coffees in one hand and bags in the other. Oh yay, food. Today is going well.

Zach hasn't noticed me yet, but he talks to Ben as he closes the door. "You will not believe the lines at starbucks. Crazy! I got the drinks, and some muffins as well. I figured Everly might enjoy the blueberry one, so don't you dare touch it, Ben. Has she came out at all? I'm worried, it's been a couple days. Ben?"

Zach finally turns to face the living room where Ben and I sat. I smile weakly at him, causing a blush to form on his cheeks. Aw, how cute–oh god, did I just think that?

Ben clears his throat, making me realize Zach and I are staring at each other. "Well, thanks for the coffee Zach. I'm going to just take mine, and go out for a bit to meet with a friend."

He thinks he's so sneaky. I know he's just leaving for Zach and I to be alone.

Zach lets out a small chuckle as Ben leaves the apartment. He brings the coffee and muffins to me, and sits down on the couch a few feet away.

Zach opens his mouth to say something, but closes it right away. I quietly thank him for the coffee and food, which makes him smile at me. I notice myself glancing over at him as we eat our food, and watch movies. I take in the features of the boy I felt strangely for. I have never been so confused.

There isn't a doubt in my mind that Zach was attractive. The way his eyes scrunch when laughing, the way his laugh filled the room, and how his face turns a light shade of red.

Other than looks, I play out the moments in my head where Zach has been appreciatedly kind towards me. He's always there when I need him. He doesn't hesitate when he hears Ben needs help. He cares about me, and last night proved that the 'bad boy' everyone talks about, is wrong. Zach has a heart, and for some reason he trusts me enough to open it up to me. I can't just ignore the words he spilled out last night. I can't ignore the thoughts that are floating in my own head. I like Zach, a lot. Hell, I think I actually love him. It's crazy to me, but I still need some time to forgive him for hurting me. For now, at least I can accept the feelings I have for him.

He notices me staring, and I look away quickly. He chuckes, and tilts his head. I can feel his eyes staring at me.

He asks, "Everything alright, Everly?"

I shyly turn my head at him, and give a real smile. Not even thinking, I tug on his shirt to sit closer to me. He grinned from ear to ear. It was the cutest thing ever.

Finally, I say the words that are fighting to break through. "Zach, I like you too."

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