More than just friends.. ( Harry Styles Love Story)

Chapter 13

 My hands tremble as I open my room door. 

The boys will laugh or think I look horrible, and if they see the cuts they will ask questions. Arggh.. why is my life so friggen difficult?

I also probably look horrible in a swimming costume. ( see the picture on the right) Talk about disgusting.

I slowly drag my my feet as I leave my room. It's the walk of shame and embarrassment, even though I have my clothes on top I dread the feeling of taking it all off and revealing what I really want to hide.

I make my way downstairs and the boys are all in their board shorts and a top. They also have their towels draped over their shoulders. I walk over to the table and I place my bag down with my towel and sunblock and I sit on an empty chair next to Liam.

"I'm ready guys. We can go now." I say, showing a weak smile.

"Alright, lets gooo!" Louis says jumping out of his seat.

They boys all copy him and jump up and down, like they have never been swimming before.

I get up reluctantly and I grab my bag. I really do not want to go.

We all head for the front door and I feel someone grab my free hand. The other hand is big and warm. It's Harry, I can recognise his hand from anywhere. I look up at him and our eyes meet.

How perfect...

He look at me and smiles.

"Babe, you alright. You don't look too good!" He say worriedly.

My heart sinks. I don't want to lie to him, but I don't want him worrying about me. He will see when we get to the lake, so he might as well wait.

"No, I'm right." I say kissing him softly.

Louis gets into the drivers seat and Niall joins him. I sit in between Harry and Zayn, while Liam is in the two seats right at the back.

As Louis starts up the car I start to feel sick. I really don't want them to see me like this. I look up at Zayn desperately. He probably knows that I'm nervous as ever and I fell him hold my hand in reassurance. He made everything much better because I know I can trust him.

We arrive at the lake and there are hardly any cars. Probably the fishermen that come regularly. 

This lake isn't really known much, people don't really come here much and that is the real reason we come here, because the boys don't need thousands of fans surrounding them while they are on a bit of a break.

Liam, Louis and Niall run in front, while taking their shirts off, getting ready to jump in the water. Meanwhile Harry and Zayn are walking by my two sides. My nerves kick in and I feel like running back, but I'm going to be strong, the boys might as well know. I'm just hoping that they don't laugh or make fun of me.

When we finally get to the dirt and sand part of the lake, we set down our stuff. Harry takes off his shirt first and I can't help but stare. He has they most beautiful body ever. Then I turn around and I see Zayn topless as well. I look at the amazing tattoos spread across his body. The boys look lovely and have amazing bodies while I'm here bruised and beaten.

I slowly start pulling my dress over my head and I start to slip my feet out of my sandals. I keep my head down the whole entire time, I don't want to see any reactions.

When I finally get undressed and I put all my stuff in my beach bag, I just stand there looking down. That's when Harry starts to speak.

"Nessa.... Nessa is the nickname that all the guys call me, but not as much anymore.

"What are all of those bruises on your back and stomach?" Harry says softly.

 Tears start to form in my eyes. My head is still down facing the ground. That's when I hear footsteps coming to approach me. 

My head slowly starts to rise and I see all the faces of the boys in shock, well all of the boys except for Zayn, He has seen them before.

I feel a tear roll down my cheek as I look around at each of them. My heart starts pounding nearly escaping my chest.

"Vanessa... what is all of that?" Louis says in utter shock.

I cup my face in my hands and I start bawling my eyes out.

Harry grabs me and pulls me close into his chest. He puts his arms around my waist and I wrap my hands around his back. I cry into his chest and I feel numerous hands rub against my back. They boys are trying to calm me down my I just can't stop crying.

Tears fall like a waterfall down my face and I can hardly breathe. This is not how I thought I would react.

Harry keeps whispering in my ear telling me that it is ok and that I shouldn't worry.

I pull away and I turn around to all the boys with sympathetic looks on their faces. I don't want sympathy.. I just want to get away from here.

I put my shoes on and I grab my stuff.

"Hey Nessa, it's ok." Liam says kindly placing his hands on my shoulders.

I feel a lump in my throat rise and I turn around.

"Boys, I look disgusting, horrible, stupid, ugly.. and everything else that describes what you are seeing." I say looking at them each in the eye.

They all come in close to hug me and they start to tell me that Im gorgeous and pretty and amazing, but I just raise my hand.

"I don't want to hear you guys telling me things that are untrue. These bruises, marks, scratches and scars are from abuse." I say feeling my eyes burning, ready to let another wave of tears to spill our of my eyes.

" My Dad use to abuse me when I was younger. My mum and sister also got abused. But, he is dead now so there is no need to worry." I say sighing.

"Why didn't you tell us?" Niall asks sympathetically.

" Because.."

" I thought you guys wouldn't think I was that happy girl with a perfect life. A girl that is always happy and has a smile in every situation." 

"I didn't want you guys to come back from tour and then be all worried about me. You guys need someone that is perfect and I'm not. My life has been a lie and I haven't told you guys the truth. I'm sorry!" I finish.

The boys all look at me and hug me. This was not what I was expecting, I thought the boys would be mad.

" You don't have to be sorry Vanessa. We are always your friends and no one is perfect in this world." Harry says holding my hand tightly.

My heart flutters. The boys are amazing and I don't know how I could have ever doubted them on this.

"Thanks Harry.. and you guys... I feel that friends like you are ones that I could never let go of!"I say as tears roll down my cheeks but this time because of happiness.

"Come on, lets swim. We won't judge you! You look beautiful!" Zayn says smiling.

He has known all along, but still its good to hear all of this. I love the boys!

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Sorry haven't posted in ages. I have been working on this one for a while and I wanted to make it longer. Hope you all liked this one. :) Make you feel good inside anyways will be posting soon love you all!!!! xoxoxoxoxox