Nightmare Dressed As A Daydream

The nightmare

Ever since Ashley's childhood , her favorite part of the day was when the sky became dark. She has always been fascinated by the night. She used to go outside and spend hours looking at the stars and the beautiful bright moon. But " everything changes after time " they say. Ashley's mother left when she was born leaving her with her abusive and alcoholic father , all alone.

Her father would come home late in the middle of the night and just look at the poor five months old Ashley cry. Sometimes he would spit on little Ashley out of anger or pour her with alcohol. One dawn , Ashley father was annoyingly sick and tired of little Ashley's whining that he decided to place her behind a church. Ashely was found by a church member and she decided to take her to an orphanage home.

As Ashley grew older , she yearned for attention , love , reciprocity and appreciation , she found that in girls who were much older than her , girls she met at the orphanage and girls who were really bad influence. They sneaked in drugs and alcohol in the orphanage. When Ashley took one sniff of the drug , she'd poison her mind with unrealistic scenarios and contemplating suicide.

She drifting into depression , she couldn't eat nor sleep. Imagining what kind of a person her mother was , how she looked like , why she left them and where she currently is. Ashley told herself that her mother is dead , that she killed herself because of her abusive father. Such thoughts lingered in her head and they manifested in tears. One night , Ashley got out of bed and walked to her bathroom lazily , she reached out for a razor blade and said " I cannot live like this , I'm not worth it , I'll join my mother , she must be bored without me. I'm coming mother , I'm coming to you ".

She cut herself taking deep breaths in between and continued cutting herself while crying , silently outside but loudly inside. Her red blood rolled down her arm and she collapsed on her pool of blood , she turned pail and fought to breathe for a little while , her body slowly shuts down and her arm become numb , she was paralyzed , she couldn't feel a thing.

Her bathroom became a blur sight and her last drop of tears joins her pool of blood , she slowly shut her eyes yet fighting to open them , her heartbeat begins to slow down and she utters her last words " I'm coming mother ".

She was found by their caretaker in the morning and was taken to the hospital. She woke up with chains around her wrist and and ankles. She yelled out for the nurse and pleaded with her to unchain her. The nurse unchained her and Ashley kicked her and ran away.

Nobody looked for Ashley and no one didn't care about her whereabouts , where is she , where she lives , whether she has eaten or taken a bath or whether she has a roof on top of her head