Still Blooming [COMPLETED]

Chapter 12

"Did you really love me at all, Dazai?"

Dazai's eyes widened at the question. He looks at Chuuya who's looking desperately for an answer from him. The brunette could feel Chuuya's feelings from where he's at.

He wanted to say yes. He wanted to hug his Chuuya and apologize again and again. He wanted to kiss him like there was no tomorrow.

But nothing came out of Dazai's mouth. Not a single word. It was like something was stuck in his throat. He could only look down in shame.

Chuuya waited for an answer but when Dazai remained silent and worst, looked away from him, Chuuya felt so small, so helpless.

"I did... I still do... but it looks like it's just one-sided." Chuuya said as tears run down his pale cheeks. It hurt. It hurt him so much. He felt so small, so terrible, so guilty and afraid. All the anger was gone but what he was feeling now is much worse.

Dazai remained silent. When he heard a small sniffle, he immeiately looked up and he felt like his world had ended, like someone had just stabbed him in the heart.

Chuuya is crying.

Chuuya is crying because of him.

Chuuya is crying because someone named Dazai Osamu had broken his heart.

"Aren't you going to say anything?" Chuuya asked through his tears. "Anything at all?" He was tugging on Dazai's shirt by now. "Don't stay quiet and stiff! Just f*cking say something, damn it!" Chuuya shouted at him as he cried. His voice was filled with sadness and fear.

Dazai watched with a painful frown. He wanted to say something but he couldn't. His guilt was eating up his courage to speak at all. Seeing Chuuya cry was slowly breaking him and feeling his guilt to grow rapidly.

"Please... say something... anything," Chuuya said, his head hanging low as he looked down. His tears were falling on the white sheets but less he cared. He hates this feeling. He felt worthess. His ego was missing and had lost its way back.

Dazai suddenly hugs the crying ginger, keeping him close to his chest. "Chuuya... I love you... and nothing will ever change that."