Being a Kpop Idol | READER x JIMIN

03

chapter 3; too much going on in my head

after dance practice, I went home, crying. 

I like him, I really like him so much, I didn't mean to hurt him. it's just that I'm going through so much right now and there is too much going on in my head, I really can't handle with love right now.

I wiped my tears away and sighed.

when the time comes, I will tell him the truth, I just have to act like I don't care for now. 

'omg! is that lee y/n?' someone said, 

'oh my- she does look like her' another person said

'let's just ask' the third person said,

'u-Uhm, excuse me? are you lee y/n? from The BlackRoses?'

oh no not this right now, I wiped away all my tears and put on a fake smile and turned around to see a young girl.

'yeah, I am' i smiled.

'omg can we please take a picture with you?' she asked,

'of course' i said.

we took some pictures and they seemed very happy,

'omg thank u so much y/n! we really love u and your hard work, and we are really sad about what happened to chae young... 'the girls said,

'we really miss her' one of the girls started crying,

'ah, don't cry,' i said and hugged her,

'or else I'll cry too'

she then stopped crying, 'i'm sorry, I can't help it.'

'it's okay' i said and smiled,

'i have to go now, hopefully, I'll see you girls someday again! thank you for loving and supporting us, I love you' i said,

'we love u too! ' they said, then I just walked away

they are so nice and we just have to lie to them... 

time skip

I came home and everyone was just doing their own thing since it was their day off.

'hey y/n, how was it?' kwan min a, asked.

'hm, it was okay, I finally know the choreography' I said as I smiled.

'that's good, I'm proud of you' she said and hugged me.

'I can see you cried, y/n-ah. what happened? is it still about her?' she whispered

'yeah, the moments we had back in there came up' I lied

again.

'It's going to be hard for you, I know, it's also hard for us, but it'll be better, maybe not now, but I promise, it'll be better later' she smiled sadly at me,

it feels like it won't get better though,

I just sighed and smiled,

'yeah, I know, I'm going to take a shower right now' I said and tried to walk away,

'you are not eating anything?' she asked and I chuckled,

'I'm on a diet' 

the shitty k-pop diets, 

I walked away and as soon as I got to my room, I took a towel and walked into the bathroom and took a long, hot shower.

to be continued