I was honestly shocked, I mean that incident with my Dad was a one time thing and my mom and I were on pretty good terms last time I checked.
"What do you mean what am I doing here? Kyle called me, did you honestly think I wouldn't ?" I said incredulously.
"We sent you away for a reason Phoenix, we don't want you here. You're a bad influence, if you're here then Danny might turn out-" She stopped herself and my eyes stung. Danny wouldn't turn out like anything. He had two months to live his life.
"I don't give a fuck about you two anymore" I snapped even though it was very untrue. "I'm here for Danny, Kyle, Ryder and Hunter ONLY
them." I said quieter. My parents opinion does in fact matter to me and it hurts more than anything to know that they don't want me to be around them anymore, that they don't love me.
"Phoenix, can I talk to you for a minute?" Kyle said pulling me up the stairs. We went into what use to be my room. The walls were white and baren. My bed was still there but there was only white sheets on it. Everything was so plain and just.....foreign. I swallowed the lump in my throat and looked at Kyle, motioning for him to start talking.
"Phoenix, they love you..a lot." He said slowly. I scoffed and rolled my eyes.
"Kyle they just said they didn't want me here" I said bitterly.
"Phoenix, it's been a Long day for all of us. They didn't mean it."
"They haven't even attempted to even talk to me since LAST YEAR!" I exclaimed. He didn't have an answer for that one. "FUCK THEM! IF THEY DON'T CARE ABOUT BE I SURE AS HELL DON'T CARE ABOUT THEM!" I yelled.
"You don't mean that, and you know it." He whispered. I sat on the bed and put my head in my hands.
"I am completely and utterly emotionally destroyed after today. It's only been a year since-" I stopped and took a shaky breathe. "Since James died. AND NOW THIS SHIT!" I yelled fighting tears. Kyle wrapped his arms tightly around me, pulling me close to his chest.
"Shh." He said soothingly.
"Oh and of course there's Marcus getting jealous over every other male in the same room as me." I said throwing my hands in the air.
"This is all Mom and Dad's fault, if they didn't send you away James wouldn't have killed himself and you wouldn't have had to deal with Marcus and who the hell knows what would've happened with Danny. Phoenix you know what I'm doing now?"
"What?" I said looking up at him.
"I play college football, without a care in the world! It's not fair that you have to deal with this! You're only eighteen years old!" He yelled. I sighed and shook my head.
"Kyle I'm actually doing ok. The band is going on tour with Black Veil Brides in a couple days. And Marcus is awesome really, I was just stressed." He gave me a look and nodded.
"But you just...you had to grow up so fast, I'm STILL acting like a kid. I have a different girlfriend every couple of months, I'm hungover as fuck at the moment and all this yelling doesn't help much. I miss you being so childish and temperamental, and funny, and hyper, and sneaky, and I REALLY miss you being at home." He said quietly. I smiled sadly and put a hand on his back.
"I still get to act like that just.............not as often I guess. And God do I miss being at home, I miss my old life....a lot. I love what I'm doing now, don't get me worng. But I just wonder what it would be like if I stayed and James, Katrina, and I went to college together and I got to watch Danny and Hunter grow up. I miss you guys and I miss how mom and Dad use to be.' I whispered. A tear slipped down my cheek and Kyle hugged me. I spent an hour hanging out with Hunter, Ryder, Kyle and Danny. Savouring the time I had with them. This might be the last time I see Danny. I took A LOT of pictures. Ones of Danny and Mom, Danny and Dad, and Danny and the rest of us. I sighed, I was halfway back to the campus and all I had to do was think and that was bad at the moment. I drowned out my thoughts with very, very loud music. I sped to my REAL home and got there in thirty minutes. I parked infront of the front office and signed back in. Mr. C gave me a sympathetic look and I smiled at him softly. I'm pretty sure I look even worse then I did before. I walked slowly to my dorm and was relieved to find it empty except for Marcus. He wasn't playing xbox like I thought he'd be. He was just sitting on his bed, staring off into space. His head snapped up when he heard me come in. He got up and wrapped his arms around me tightly. I buried my face into his chest and he kissed the top of my head.
"Do you wana talk about it?" He said quietly. I shook my head and he picked me up and layed me down on his bed. He layed dow and I curled up next to him.
"I love you. " He whispered.
"I love you too." I said closing my eyes. When I woke up my dorm was once again full. I groaned internally, I really wasn't looking for a sympathy party and I hope Marcus told them that. It was Katrina, Tony, Marcus, Bradey, Andy, and CC. Atleast it wasn't everybody. I yawned got some clothes and headed straight to the bathroom. I took a shower, brushed my hair and teeth and got dressed in white skinny jeans and a black tank top. I walked out and sat cross legged on my bed.
"Hey Phoenix." CC said with a grin. He's always smiling, it made me happy. I smiled and waved.
"Hey CC, hey Andy. Sup guys." I said quietly.
"¿Estàs bien? (Are you alright?)" Tony said softly.
"En realidad, no. (Not really)" I grumbled looking down at my lap. The rest were talking but they stopped and looked at us. Katrina has learned some spanish, probably enough to understand that. She gave me a sad look. The silence was deafening. I sighed and got up.
"I'm going for a walk." I grumbled
