Hi, my name is Emily. I'm 16 years old and on August 2018, my older sister, committed suicide. I miss her very much and I have depression anxiety and stress from it. I cry every night, I watch all the YouTube videos we made together, I have memories of us and smile, I remember the times we would stick up for each other...now...shes gone...forever....my dear sister...I love you...you were there for me on those hard days and the good ones...I miss you...I understand why you did it now...but, I miss you....you were the one that understood me...you took your own life...and all because of our parents fighting...I can't take it anymore....I pray to God every day that I won't cry, that I'll be strong...I know your looking after me...I feel it...you are my guardian angel...or at least that's how I feel....I miss you...I wish you the best...hope you have sweet dreams in heaven...I will repeat these words over and over again in my head i feel like my sister is still out there somewhere but I even went to her funeral....so she can't be...I remember when we would go outside and we would play together and have fun, the last good memory I remember having with her was when we went to Disney world together I still remember when we were laughing and talking and just having a good time but now I can't experience that anymore. When I found out she did this I didn't think I could be happy again. Me and her were inseparable for most most our lives. I just needed to get that off my chest but if anyone has experienced something like this please share with me.
