Chapter 2

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Waking up in the morning gives me a headache. I feel like the life gets drained out of me and I Can't feel my body. The only thing I have to live for is my daughter Lizzy she's the light in my life. I want to go to the gym so I am going to get up and get in the shower so I can leave, but first I have to get Lizzy up and dressed so Marissa can come watch her for me while I'm out. I pick out my clothes which consists of a red shirt and red tights with some red running shoes. I get my towel from off the door and head into the bathroom. I start taking my clothes off and I feel a cold chill go past me and I pause for a second but then I just shake off the feeling and continue to take my clothes off. I turned the shower and while I waited for it to be hot enough I stared at myself in the mirror and tears started to run down my face when I saw the scars on my stomach and thighs. I hate what they did to me, but I can't keep thinking about the past because it's only going to make me sad. I get into the shower and start scrubbing my body and then let the water run down my back and the the front of my body getting my hair wet in the process. I stay in the shower for another 25 minutes then I get out and grab my towel wrapping it around my body. Drying my feet on the rug thats on the floor. I step out the bathroom drying myself off I drop my towel and walk towards my bed to get my and sit on it putting on lotion rubbing it all over my body and then putting on my underwear and sports bra. I get up to put on my tights and then I put on my shirt. Then I plop back down on the bed and lay there for a minute then get up to go cook Lizzy some breakfast. When i'm done cooking I call Lizzy down to come get her food and she came  downstairs almost falling on the steps, she comes into the kitchen and says hi then she sits at the table then demolishes the food. She hands me the plate when she's done and then she goes to the sink to wash her hands. There's a knock at the door so I ask who it is and Marissa answers so I open the door and hug her then I let her in the house. Lizzy runs up to her giving her a hug telling her how much she missed her even though she was with her last night. I excuse myself and go to my room to get my bag with my things in it not forgetting to get my phone and charger. I go to the kitchen to get 2 water bottles and I put them in my bag and I  head out the kitchen to the living room where Lizzy and Marissa are watching My Little Pony. I walk up to Marissa and tell her i'm on my way out and then I bend down to give Lizzy a hug and a kiss and tell her i'll miss her and that I love her. I head out the door locking it on my way out. I head down the stairs towards my car and unlock the door. As soon as I get in I close the door and put my things in the passenger seat and then stretch my legs, I put my seat belt on and then check my mirrors to see if everything is in place. Everything seems fine so I back out and then put the car in drive. While i'm driving I turn on the radio and the music comes on. I bob my head to whatever song that came on the radio. In 25 minutes I arrive at the gym, I look around for a parking spot I find one and then I park in it turning off my car I take my keys out and then I get my things out of the passenger seat and I open my door and get out the car and then I close it putting my bag strap on my arm. I head to the entrance of the gym and open the door. I walk inside and there is a lot of people in here I go to the locker rooms and I put my things in it closing it back. I head out the room and go to the treadmills, once i'm there I put my earphones in and I step on it messing with the buttons until I am pleased with the pace of the treadmill. I start to run a little bit and then I press the button for it to go a little faster and I start running. When I got done I tried to turn treadmill off but then I tripped and I thought I was gonna fall and hit the floor hard but then someone caught me and I turned around to look at the person and he was hella fucking gorgeous like omg. I couldn't believe my eyes. I looked him in his eyes and he looked deep in mines and I swear I felt my legs tighten. He licked his lips and he asked me if I was okay and I said yeah and he let me go and he asked me my name and I told him it was Maya he said his name was Jace and I said nice to meet you Jace thanks for saving me from that fall. He said no problem hunny, and I would help you any day. I told him that I had to leave and get back to my daughter he said aww that sucks and he said and I hope to see you another time I said and yeah I would like that he asked for my number I said and you have to try a little harder baby and then I headed out the door towards my car. When I went to my car there was a note on the window that said I'm coming for you baby I hurried up and crumbled the paper and unlocked my car door and closed it putting the keys in the ignition. I pulled out and hurried up and drove home, on my way home I was getting paranoid like someone was watching me. I drove a little faster until I got home. I took my keys out and I got out the car and locked the doors and I hurried and ran up my stairs unlocking my door and going inside. Once I got inside I called out for Marissa and Lizzy when I didn't get a response I got a little scared and called out again and still no answer so I dropped my stuff and started to check the rooms to see if they were in one of them. I didn't see them so I ran down the stairs to get my phone and call Marissa to see that I had 4 miss calls and 3 messages telling me that she took Lizzy out for lunch and that they were gonna go to the arcade after. When I saw that I was relieved and then I texted her back to say okay and to be safe. I went over to the couch and I sat down and put my head back closing my eyes. I woke up with slobber on my face so I wiped it with my shirt and then I looked at my phone to see the time and it said that it was 5:30pm and I was like damn that's a long nap. I got up and stretched and then I went to the kitchen to get some apple juice I drunk it and then put the bottle back into the refrigerator and then I headed up the stairs taking my clothes off while I'm going up the stairs, by the time I got to my room I could feel the cool air on my naked body I walked to my bed and got in it and put the covers on and closed my eyes going to sleep again.

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