I feel this very familiar "numbness." And I try everyday of my life to feel okay. It's all a facade. Most days I don't want to get out of bed. While I've been doing very well lately . It's all a roller coaster. Ups and downs, mainly downs.
I'm mad at myself because I don't want to feel this way. I have to fake it in front of my family because it is not fair. I put them through a lot. A lot. They sent me to different doctors in different states. They paid for "off the books" treatment because they didn't want anything psychiatric in my record. Why don't I feel okay?
Why am I such a sad person? I'm not suicidal but I don't want to be alive.
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Depression explained
PoetryThis is a collection on poems I wrote while I was struggling with depression, body image, ptsd and trauma.
