Unstable

Chapter 1

My heart wouldn't stop. Faster and faster it ran and made me think it'd bust like a balloon, but it began to slow. As it did, the pain set in and became unbearable. I glanced around everywhere trying to find its cause but my eyes were hazy, as if a film had formed over them. I only recognized one figure. Mother. I felt this horrible ache throughout my body that I cannot compare to any other feeling in my life. The pain paralyzed me and if I moved at all, it grew worse. Yet, moving seemed to be all I could do. Like I was being electrified, my body moved involuntarily. Suddenly I felt her hands pin me down with this bone snapping strength I never knew she possessed. I locked my dark blues with her bright hazel damp eyes. She had been crying, no sobbing,"Dear, moving will only create more pain."
It was as if fire and poison were running through my veins and it stung like a million little tiny daggers. I couldn't try to contain my screams, though that added to the acidic pain in my vocal chords and throat. My voice was no longer mine. It had twisted into a darker version of my once normal voice. I sounded evil. The stinging agony was turned into horrible paroxysms that felt like my muscles were being torn and stretched to new limits. Yet, I felt it in an intricate way. My arms didn't hurt my biceps did, and other individual muscles and veins were sore. My brain was alit I felt it pulsate. My thoughts were jumbled up memories that flashed by. I couldn't grasp anything soon as my brains fog grew into a storm then a tsunami. The sound of my skull crackling will never be something I will forget hearing though. My body was being pushed past its limit. How could any mother do this to her only child? I begged her to make it stop. All she did was stand there, watching me writhe in misery. She hung her head and cried silently. The poison was stinging the worst in my left arm and my heart valves,"Mommy, Please! Take it away! I don't want it!"
I must've looked demonic, vellicating the way I was,"It's too late Neva. It's in your heart now."
The drubbing in my chest was reduced to almost untraceable and silent,"Make it stop! Why would you do this!"
"So you may live. I feel so..., UGH! My baby darling angel. It'll end shortly, I promise if it doesn't end, I'll end it all."
I was weeping to the point where my body convulsed even more,"Kill me! I can't take this pain, I'm dying!"
"I know you are. Baby be strong. I'm so sorry."
The seizures and excruciating pain continued on for 10-15 more minutes. I felt my body fighting and some how win little by little. I could feel my mind forgetting things. It was like my whole life was played back in that instant. The only thing left in my mind was to be strong and beat death to stay here. So I tried to stifle the pain to the point it was just bearable but, it did no good. Just as my flashback ended my whole being shook under my mothers restraint. My back arched, cracked, and finally broke against my control along with my ribs. My mom turned her head away from me, her grip hardening against my arms as the torturing exploded within me. The explosion caused me to unintentionally fight against my mother even harder. I broke, like a flimsy ball being shot at a metal wall. I blared out from the excruciating sensation of every bone popping and snapping and shattering within me. With that scream my throat tightened and my neck muscles popped. My voice twisted back into something recognizable when my neck finally broke. I looked into my mother's golden eyes as I crumpled, fell back, and passed out.