Bank On It

💛Chapter.20💛

I have taken so much time off to recover from all this bullshit that has been happening right now and I only have some people to thank for why I'm not going over the top crazy right now.
Since receiving that rose from Apollo many weeks ago now, myself and Apollo have only been romantic once since I moved in with him that has also been just once and I wanna at least show that I love him too and I will always love him no matter what.
I was about to say something about it but he wanted to talk about it first as it always turns out.
Apollo: "Are you ok?"
Me: "Well yeah, why wouldn't I be?"
Apollo: "Just asking you have been looking so down as of late"
Me: "I'm ok, really I am"
Apollo: "Ok anyway, there's something I want to ask you"
Me: "Ok..... So...... What is it that you want to ask me?"
Apollo: "Will you go out with me tonight?"
Me: "Really?"
Apollo: "Yes"
Me: "Ok, I would love to"
Apollo: "Great, see you there"
I just panicked for a little bit because I thought I had nothing great to wear but it turns out that I do have something I like to wear, but luckily I went shopping just before the fact and I have stuff here, all I have to do is style my hair, put on make up which is what I never do these days and look pretty.
When I'm around Apollo I don't feel any different and I can just be me and he will be pleased but when I'm around everyone else I'm someone that I'm not and I wanna change that.
I wanna be me all the time, I need to stop being what people want me to be and just be myself.
I'm done trying to be like everyone else and be what everyone else wants me to be and I know the people who want me to be myself and I'm glad that I'm around them type of people my friends, family and my crush Apollo but to others I will never be good enough bit that's just my opinion.
Amber will sure see a difference in me eventually and nothing about me will change except the fact that I am me.