Why Do I Bother?

When I got home from school I was on the bus crying,

Not because I had a bad day,

Not because I was picked on,

And not because I had my heart broken by a boy,

It was because of four words,

Why Do I Bother?

See, Last year I asked my sister a question about a new friend.

I was crying because I was emotionally and mentally drained,

By this friend,

Or as I should say acquaintance.

She told me "We barley no each other we only have one thing in common and that's school,"

"Your more of an acquaintance, but try to get to know her it will get better."

In all honesty I was thinking

Why do I bother?

I was in my Mothers arm crying because I was exhausted Mentally and Emotionally.

Because of this friend I wanted to give up

She told me" Sweetie it's okay breathe. She's an acquaintance and that's okay,"

" Your not going to be friends with everybody."

I responded, "But, Mom she replies to Sydney right away,"

when they text like it's the most important thing in the world."

She said" But Honey they've no each other longer, you just need to get to know her better."

I thought in my head I've tried everything.

Why Do I Bother?

Then on the verge of giving up I pray to god and ask him "Why do I bother?"

Then, we get close and are friends.

Not acquaintances like everyone says.

For at least in school and outside of school for a week then on the weekend

and for the Whole month I ask myself

Why Do I Bother?

Then, I think to myself "Why Do I bother?"

I bother because giving up is not in my vocabulary.

I bother because she seems like a person I want to be my friend.

I bother because I want to end my day thinking "At least I tried."

And maybe I'm still thinking

Why Do I Bother?

And Maybe I'm being dramatic.

And I just need sleep.

Which is possible.

But, I know I won't stop trying until She say's" Don't bother."

But, until then I'm going to keep trying until my heart tells me to give up.

But,I can't promise I won't stop thinking

Why do I bother?

AN: Hope you enjoyed this sad poem. But, Never give up even if you lose hope.