honestly i dont know what i did wrong. my dads girlfriend hates me and ive known her for barely two months. it would honestly be better if i disappeared. at least thats what everyone tells me. idrk what to do anymore. i could kill myself if i wanted to, but i would prefer to go out not by my own hand. like if a car was about to hit me, i wouldnt move out of the way. i dont really mind dying. we all die in the end anyway. the only thing holding me back is my friend. she is so innocent and shes the only one that cares about me. i had a friend for 10 years, that when i told her i was depressed and i was hurting myself and i was suicidal, she swore not to tell anyone. a few days later, we got in an arguement and she told everyone. i think ive told this story before. but honestly, my new friend whom ive only known for four years, loves me so much, and cares, that i honestly couldnt do that to her. when she saw my wrists, she started bawling and hugging me, asking me why. i feel so bad for doing that to my wrists, that it makes me do it more. whenever she sees it, she either pats my hand or hugs me and smiles and says it will be okay. i wish i could believe her. oh well. she will probably stab me in the back too. im just enjoying it while it lasts i guess.
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RandomThis is because im depressed af. Sometimes I cant handle it, and sometimes it gets to be too much so yeah. this is how im gonna cope. have a problem? dont read it.
