New Beginning || JJK

chapter 44 ,, My last goodbye"

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⚠ATTENTION!⚠
This chapter will be heart breaking, sad and could trigger!
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Y/N's pov.
I woke up to an empty bed again.
I had that dream of holding Young-jae in my arms and walking through the park with him and my husband...
If it's too beautiful to be true.. Well then it is...
The dream was soft.
I held him while we watched the blossoms bloom in a huge garden.
Jungkook was singing to him and he fell asleep at the sight of the spring's colors shine so pure and bright.
Jungkook pecked our son's forhead and than my lips.
We sat down on the grass and admired the sunset in this beautiful garden...
Just thinking about the dream makes my heart ache.

I checked my phone and saw that Jungkook send me a message.

Right it's that time again...
My birthday...
I don't want to celebrate it without *him*...
It doesn't feel right...
Why did it have to be you, my love.
Why not me?
I felt tears in my eyes but quickly dried them and went to get a shower.
Since it's Saturday, I don't have to work.
I got ready and made some food.
Suddenly my phone went on.
I picked up and it was Hope.
,,HEY BITCH" she greeted me.
,,u-uhm hey" I said back.
,,Could you please open your door" I went and opened it just to see Jinyoung and Hope there. My jaw dropped and they immediately hugged me.
,,Happy birthday sweetie"
My eyes got teary and I started crying.
I didn't see them in a year and then.. They just appear...
We went inside and talked a bit.
When HaEun arrived she brought a cake and some presents.
I forced a smile and nodded all the time while I was thinking about Young-jae...
He'd be 6 month old by now.
,,Uhm.. Y/N?" I snapped out of thoughts and faced them with "that" smile again.
,,Yeah?"
,,do you want to rest? You seem pale and it's almost 8pm"
I widen my eyes at Jinyoung's statement and checked the time.
I laughed nervously and nodded..
,,yeah.. Would be great.. Jungkook is coming home in an hour and I need to get everything ready haha" they nodded, walked to the door and said their goodbye's.
Their flight is around 4am so we won't see each other again...

They left an I ran into my room.
I took out my notebook and started writing one more time...

I smiled at the last sentence while a little tear rolled down my cheek.
,,I need to be brave now"
I walked into the bathroom and let the water flow into the bathtub.
,,22 years... that's what i became huh? i thought i'd give up years earlier.... thank you jungkook, for giving me these last years and making them better..." I felt steamy tears flow down my face again.

Nobody's POV.
Y/N smiled as she took her razor blade into her left hand.. She took a deep breath in and cut into her soft skin.
Blood was flowing but she didn't seem to care.. She didn't show any sign of pain neither.
She just sat in the tub, letting her red and thicc blood become one with the water that once was clear and pure.
her eyes felt heavier and her heartbeat become slower second per second.
She let her tears flow as the last words left her lips as quiet as a whisper.
,,I'll see you soon, Young-jae"
That's when Jeon Y/N closed her eyes once for all..
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Hey everyone...
So... uhm...
This book has almost come to an end... Just like Y/N's pain...
What did she write into her notebook...
What will Jungkook think when he comes home?
You'll find out in the next and with that last chapter...

Writing this book, meant a lot to me.
All the attention, love and support you gave me and this book was so sweet and loving.
I'm very thankful for every single reader and every little vote.
I love you with all of my heart but every story has an end...
Even Y/N's ,,new beginning" has to find it's way to end.

I LOVE Y'ALL JUST AS MUCH AS JUNGKOOK LOVES Y/N...
I'm sorry for this kind of plot twist

Lot's of love...
-Your Author-nim😔✊