A Teenage Love Story </3 (TRUE STORY)

A Teenage Love Story

By : Julia K.

Hello. My name is Julia. I'm going to talk about boys. Boys are pretty much idiots. But right now, I'm going to talk about one specific boy. His name is Rubin. He's the same age as me, 14. But Rubin has to be the biggest douche I ever met. Let me tell you what he's done to me. Alright well back in October 2011, Rubin "fell in love with me" (You'll see why I quoted that later on) at the time I was dating this other jerk Justin. He was a just a player. A big time player. I could tell he was too but I wouldn't believe it. So anyway throughout me and Justin's relationship, Rubin was there for me. Which I have to thank him for because I always appreciated that. He also ALWAYS tried to go out with me. Everyday he told me he loved me, called me princess, sent me good morning and good night texts, did everything for me. Did the stuff that my BOYFRIEND Justin didn't do. Then in mid December 2011 Justin dumped me for some other girl. Which I was devastated about because I was starting to fall for him. STARTING to. But through thick and thin, not only was Rubin my shoulder to cry on, he was also my best friend. He even called me on New Years at exactly 12:00am to wish me a happy new year. We stood up on the phone until about 5:00am talking to each other. Until my dad came home and made me go to sleep. But Rubin was treating me like his girlfriend and we weren't even together. But I didn't mind of course what girl wouldn't want that kind of attention? But anyway in mid January 2012 I fell in love with him. And I fell HARD. I thought about him 24/7. February 3, 2012 is when I made a huge mistake. Hmm how do I start this... I guess you can say we had a good relationship. We hung out a lot. We held hands and just did regular couple stuff. We did argue sometimes but what couple doesn't? Anyways I was madly in love with him. And he was madly in love with me. He still treated me amazing. Just like he did before we started dating. He was such a nice guy. I thought he was the one... I was dead wrong. About a month later he started asking personal questions. Questions I never thought he would ask. Like "would you have sex with me?" He started to touch my breasts. He was basically getting more perverted each and everyday. Which was kind of telling me something. I don't know if he changed, or if he was always a jerk but that's what he was turning into. He wasn't as much of a gentleman anymore. He stopped trying to do what he did to date me. When he was around his friends he was a complete jerk. He would make fun of me, call me names ,and just treat me like shit. He wouldn't talk to me in school as much as anymore, he wouldn't text me, he wouldn't message me on Facebook anymore, everything was different. In April 2012 I was at my mom's friend's dad's house it was a birthday party. So I was using they're computer to talk to Rubin on Facebook. We were arguing as usual. To tell you the truth I don't even remember what it was about. But he broke up with me. So of course I wanted to burst into tears. So I asked my mom if I can go downstairs to the car to get my IPod. (of course I lied I can't tell my mom anything) so I went to the car and cried hysterically for HOURS. I stood in that car all night until the party was over. Sitting there with the key halfway turned in the ignition, blasting music, and crying my eyes out. I argued with Rubin that whole night. Even in the car while I was crying. Which didn't make anything better. All I kept telling him was how big of a jerk he was, And how I was the best thing that could ever happen to him, Stuff like that. So GET THIS. After I cursed him out, we got back together. But I knew it was over. I just didn't know how long it was going to last. And as long as it did last, I knew our relationship wouldn't be the same. Because I never thought he would do that to me. EVER. But anyways my mom came downstairs to the car with her friend because the party was over and she had to drive her home. By then I had already ran out of tears. She asked me why I was in the car the whole time. I told her I was crying. You should've seen her face when I said that. She said "crying!? What!? Why!? it better not be about a boy!" I couldn't even look at her because I had to lie to her when I told her the reason. I told her I was crying because of my uncle. My uncle had died a couple days before this happened. Do you know how more angry I had to be at Rubin considering the fact that I had to use my uncles death as an excuse to lie to my mother about why I was crying? I wanted to rip his head off. This whole thing happened on a Friday. So I didn't have to see his face until school on Monday. Which helped a little bit. I needed a little break after that night. But anyway driving home, I didn't even speak to my mom. Because she knew I was upset. The whole ride home I looked out the window thinking about everything that went on that night. Thinking about what's going to happen on Monday. That whole weekend I didn't speak to him. Well I did once but only for a little on the phone. He said "Yoo... I can't believe what happened last night. That was crazy." I said "noo don't worry about it its okay." He said "noo its not.... I ... I " I said "you what?" Then he had to go. I could kind of tell what he was trying to say. He didn't want to be with me anymore he was just trying to make it last. That's what I thought. Anyway Monday comes and he's not there. I asked him what happened and he said something about his brother. Okay whatever. Tuesday comes he's still not there. I asked him again why he wasn't there and he said the same thing. Almost a whole WEEK passes by and I don't see him. At that point I didn't know what to think. Oh by the way, I saw a therapist every Wednesday, and I made a bracelet that said "Rubin+Julia" So... I don't remember what day it was it might have been Thursday or Friday I don't know. But anyway he came to school. I saw him in the hallway and we hugged then he went back to class. He was acting funny because usually he would run up to me, hug me, then kiss me. Especially since he hasn't seen me for a while. Okay so lunch comes..worse lunch day ever. (I'm sorry if I get kind of off topic when I write this. I'm just still irritated by what happened) Okay so Rubin didn't even look at me ONCE. That's when I knew something was up. He was just sitting with his friends. Which he NEVER does. He always sat with me at lunch. So anyway I heard him and his friends talking. One of his friends screams in front of the whole entire lunchroom "RUBIN WANTS TO BREAK UP WITH YOU!" and Rubin just stood there looking at me not saying a word, and started laughing. Then the flashbacks of me in the car came. Like I said before I kind of knew it was over. So one of Rubin's friends who used to be my friend calls me over. So I go over there and me and Rubin's friend are right next to Rubin and his friends lunch table. So Rubin says "no don't do it over here. Take her somewhere else." So he walks me over to the lunchroom entrance and says "listen uhh... Rubin says its over." My heart sank. I tried my hardest not to cry because I hate crying in school. So I just said "Okay..." and walked back to the lunchroom and went to the lunch table where me and my friends sit. My friends know the WHOLE ME AND RUBIN STORY. Just not what happened a week before this when we broke up the first time. I didn't tell anybody because I didn't think it was worth telling. Because I knew this day would come. So when I came back my friends knew something was wrong because once I got to the lunch table, I didn't say a word. I just sat there with a blank facial expression and didn't say a word. One of my best friends Michelle said "what happened?" I told her. She was in shock. Then I told the rest of my friends. They were in shock too. Because they knew how hard he tried to date me. I knew lunch was almost over so I was trying to hold in my tears as long as I could. I could feel it. I could feel that I was about to burst into tears at any moment. But the thing that gets me is that the whole time at lunch I was glancing at Rubin to see if he would glance back at least ONCE to see if I'm okay. But he didn't. Alright so his friend David had relationship problems with another girl named Tiffany. He dumped her but she still loved him and I guess she didn't get the point that David didn't love her back. Oh by the way David and Rubin were best friends. So David, Rubin, and like 10 of his other friends came over to my lunch table. Where it was me, Michelle, Tiffany, and all of my other friends. So Rubin says "David just tell her how you feel!" and David said "I'LL TELL HER WHEN YOU TELL JULIA!" right there my heart sank again. Then I really knew it was over. I banged the lunch table, got up and ran upstairs to go cry. My friends ran up and followed me. I stood in the staircase that separated the 6th grade floor, the yard, and the 7th and 8th grade floor. I started crying like crazy. I ran fast so my friends were still trying to catch up to me. Then one of my friends caught up to me and sat next to me patting my back. Telling me everything is going to be okay. Then all of the grades started coming up for recess... including Rubin. I saw him and he saw me. We quickly glanced at each other but before either one of us could say anything I ran up to the 7th and 8th grade floor and ran all the way to the end of the hall. At the end of the hallway is a window. That's where I usually go to think. My friends chased after me again. I was crying hysterically nobody could calm me down. My friends tried to talk to me through it but they couldn't. I could see the pain and worry in they're eyes I didn't like it at all. I couldn't stand seeing them like that. I had my arms folded and my head laying down on them. In the corner of my eye I saw the bracelet that I made that said "Rubin+Julia" I took it off and put it in my pocket. I had a plan for it later. I started to calm down more because I knew I had to eventually. Plus my friends were helping me a lot, and I didn't want Rubin to see me like that. I didn't want to show him I cared. Then I heard all the grades start to come up and Michelle said "we have to go to class now" I couldn't go to class in the condition I was in. But I had no choice. So I put my hood on so nobody could see my face. My friends walked me down the hall to my class. But I saw Rubin on our way there. I just looked down, pulled my hood down a little bit more, and kept walking. So my friends dropped me off at my class, hugged me,then went to they're class. I get to class and I had social studies. I'm usually the life of the party in social studies but this time I wasn't. I sat all the way in the back with my head down. My social studies teacher was the coolest teacher ever. He came over to me and asked me if I'm okay. I said yeah I just had a headache. Another lie. Then class started and he started teaching. I wasn't paying attention at all. All I kept thinking about was Rubin. Then I couldn't hold in my tears anymore and in front of the whole class I started crying like crazy. I was hyperventilating really badly. There was 2 teachers in my social studies class. My social studies teacher saw me but he couldn't stop teaching so the other teacher came to talk to me. She asked me what was wrong and I couldn't even speak I just kept crying. She asked me if I wanted to go to the guidance counselors office and I just nodded. I just wanted to get out of there. So I walked out of class and I could see all the kids staring at me. Imagine how embarrassing that would be. So the other teacher walked me to the guidance counselors office. I always feel safe there. I always go there when I have a problem. Me and my guidance counselor were very close. So we get to the guidance counselors office and when you enter her office, there are 2 different entrances. There's the door where the hallway is, And it's a big room with a couch and table. Then there's another door that goes to her room. She has a small little room. Anyway as soon as the other teacher opens the first door, I run to the couch and I just lay there hysterical crying. Then I hear the other teacher go get the guidance counselor. So she comes out and asks me what's wrong. Just like before I can't even answer because I'm so upset. Everyone knows me and Michelle are best friends. So the guidance counselor knew who to go to. So she left to go get Michelle, and the other teacher stood at the table keeping me company. Oh by the way, there's another group of kids in the other room that had a counseling session. Not like it matters but just trying to make you visualize this whole thing. So I'm laying down crying thinking about everything. Barely breathing. I'm really upset. Then Michelle and the guidance counselor walk in. Michelle pulled up a chair and sat next to me by the couch and the guidance counselor sat next to the other teacher at the table. The room is silent. All you can hear is me crying. So Michelle gets me a tissue and I'm talking and crying at the same time. I'm saying "how could he do this to me?" and Michelle kept saying stuff like Rubin's a jerk. He has messed up teeth and no butt. Stuff like that. Then she started cracking jokes. We kept making fun of things and I actually got to smile. After I calmed down and I was all happy again, I explained to the guidance counselor what had happened. She wasn't really surprised considering the fact that she's old and she knows all about teenage love. So anyways school is basically over by the time I'm happy. The guidance counselor let me go to my locker early to get my stuff so I wouldn't have to see anybody. So I take the bus to go home because I had to go to my Nana's. I forgot why. Remember that bracelet I made that said "Rubin+Julia"? Remember I said I had a plan for it? Yeah I took it, snapped it in half, and threw it in the garbage. Also on the bus, I listened to my IPod and I couldn't stop thinking at all.I looked at my phone and I have a bunch of messages from my friends asking if I'm okay. Alright so get this! When I get there my mom's there and she says "how was school today?" I said "Good..." another lie. She said "Hmmm interesting. Then why did the school call me today?" I said " what do you mean?" she said "they called me today saying you were crying really bad, and you were really upset, and they couldn't calm you down. They were about to make me come pick you up! What happened!? Who messed with you!?" I said "nobody! I'm just still upset about Uncle Vinny." Another lie. She said "oh... okay. You know...things don't last forever. Everything dies eventually. If it's a person, a thing, a situation, anything. Nothing last forever. It's just life. It's the way God made it." I said "yeah I know. Just don't tell Daddy about what happened today. Because I don't want to bring him down more.(Uncle Vinny was my dad's brother. So he was upset more than I was) So its just between me and you okay?" She nodded. So after that whole fiasco, I swore to myself that I was never going to to talk to Rubin again. Every day I get back from school, no matter where I am, I check Facebook. I guess you can say I'm addicted to Facebook. Anyways when I check it I have a message. It's from Rubin. It says "I'm sorry." I said "take your sorry and throw it out the window! Don't talk to me again. We can't be friends anymore. I'M DONE WITH YOU!" I was madly in love with Rubin so I guess you can say I'm vulnerable when it comes to him. Meaning I was his puppet. I don't remember EXACTLY what happened, but I do remember he got me to be his friend. I remember he apologized and he admitted he was wrong. I also remember he explained everything. He said he couldn't break up with me to my face because he didn't want to see my face when he did it, and that he was going to tell me when David said "I'll tell Tiffany when you tell Julia." but I ran away. He claimed he dumped me because he lost feelings. I think its because he got bored, and because I wouldn't have sex with him. Because that's all he kept asking for was sex and I wasn't giving that to him. Well that's basically what happened that day. I couldn't sleep for hours that night. That whole week I wasn't myself. I guess I was depressed I'm not sure. But after that he would be really nice on Facebook. But then in school when he was around his friends, he would be a jerk again. Because I loved him so much I put up with his crap. For a long time actually. He knew that I still loved him. He just didn't care. Today is August 8th, 2012 and I STILL love him. He just doesn't know. I told him I stopped loving him a couple months ago. Another lie. I still love him. The sad part is I always will. How could I love a jerk like him? I don't know. But I do know deep down he still cares. Even though he has about 5 girlfriends. Which I find hard to believe. I have another boyfriend now named Mo. Who I don't really like that much. But Rubin found out and he keeps bugging his friends about it. He's bothering me about it too. I'm loving every second of it. Because he's jealous. He won't admit it but I know he is and that's good enough for me. I got to admit... I cried when I was writing about the day he dumped me at school, and the day in the car. Because it brought back memories. So that's basically me and Rubin's story....for now.

August 8,2012

-----------------UPDATE--------------

Hey guys :) Not much has happened since august 8th since its only been a month. But ill fill you guys in. I'm not dating that guy Mo anymore. I found out he was flirting with other girls on Facebook. My best friend Michelle being one of them. I don't really care though I never really liked him. I started high school. I'm a freshman. On September 5, 2012 We had this really intense conversation about how he wanted to date me again. But he made it pretty obvious he only wanted to because he saw a picture of me with my hair down and he wanted to have sex with me. One thing about me is I always have my hair in a ponytail and apparently I look different with my hair down. But him liking me again only lasted for a day. September 5th was the last time me and Rubin ever spoke about us dating again. I'm either thinking one, it was just a phase. He probably just really liked that picture with my hair down and realized how I really am. Or two, he just wanted to see if I would have sex with him. Probably because there was this rumor going around that I'm a slut now and that I would have sex with any guy. I don't know what to think anymore. I mean.. I guess I'm not in love with him anymore. I've been waiting MONTHS for him to ask me back out. And now that he said it I don't know if I should say yes or no. The old Julia would say yes in a heartbeat. But now I have to think about what I have to say. I guess I'm stronger and smarter now. That's a good thing. Right? BUT. September 13, 2012 He texted me. He said he likes this girl in his school and she likes him and he realized I never gave him an answer. So I told him that I needed time to think. He never responded... Today, September 17, 2012 I texted him because I haven't spoken to him since the 13th. Apparently he got another girlfriend. He sent me a picture of them together I was just like wow. So that means me and Rubin will never be. Plus it seems like we're never going to talk again anyway. So I guess its THE END for Rubin and Julia...