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The perfect speech

Some friendships thrive even in the most unlikely of the circumstances. It was like they always had known each other. 

If they would have been together that night they would had spend all night talking through many glasses and paints of alcohol. Nadia would had spend the night drinking whiskey with no ice, while Ewelina would enjoy her cold beer with a straw, as if she would be drinking a cocktail. Don't ask, no one can really understand this obsession of hers.

-Don't you think Ewelina should do it baby?- Nadia asked directing the conversation towards me. 

-Ahh... she is asleep... - Ewelina said confused- I don't understand how does she do this. You can't imagine how many times she leaves me talking to myself. 

-She does the same to me. One second she is speaking and then suddenly she is dead to the world! Oh my god, my girlfriend is a zombie!

-I know... Hey you need to be careful, but she will bite you and you will become a zombie too. - They both laugh, sharing the same kind of silly humour, I swear they could laugh about just anything!- Every time I start talking about my life she falls asleep. What a bitch! Don't you think so? I think she does it on purpose- she said waiting  for Nadia to help her trash her best friend.

Against all odds Nadia carefully replied:

- Oh no, I am sure she doesn't. You know she has her head in the moon all the time, but she really loves you. She really does have a big heart and she is so kind towards me... 

-Come on Blonde, stop being a pussy!- Ewelina interrupted her with disappointment! 

-Well, it is her fault and her way of making me like a  teenage girl., maybe this is the first effects of the zombie bite. It's coming, tell all my family that I love them. Well.. actually, don't.. Just make me a heroe. Tell the world I fought fearlessly and gave my live for her. I need to be celebrated. You know... I don't do any of  this normally. I always  refuse myself to be one of those cheesy couples, but she takes me out of my comfort zone and to be honest with you I am absolutely happy this way. I just want to share everything with her!

-But that's good. You are in love blonde...

-I know, but I struggle doing that... I don't know if she told you but I had a 4 years relationship with a girl and after that I swear I wouldn't want anything like that anymore?

-Why? Was she that fucked up? - Well, you will have to excuse the language, but we are in between friends, there is no need for euphemisms. 

-She is still, but yes. I used to go out and she would go out to places she knew I would normally go and pretend it was a coincidence and at home she wouldn't leave me for two seconds and then would be all emotional because I would want to go to another room and read of my own. Is not like I went to holidays alone, you know? She was psychotic! 

-Ohh poor blonde... That's why you hate people now? I understand you so much better now!- She laugh!

-Thank you Polishinha, I just want you to know that I wouldn't do anything to arm her. I know we need to be together, I need to make time for her. I just don't want to spoil it by seeing her for one hour and then needing to run back to the hospital. When I will be with her I will be there just for her. No one else. Nothing else to worry about. I know this is all unusual, but we are talking about the first time I will see her. I know I could do a video call, but I didn't had the chance to cross with her in the street and talk to her or look to her while she would be drinking a cocktail near the beach. So I want to do this properly as she deserves. Do you understand Polishinha?

For a big part of the conversation, I felt like I was actually a sleep. Everything she was saying about us, about the way she wanted things to happen, the way she talked about her girlfriend and told her story. Word by word, it was almost like I was listening to the same conversation for the second time. Almost like a speech she had practice time and time again. The only difference was that this time she wasn't speaking to me.