The Only Reason (Muke)

Chapter 3

Luke's POV

When we arrived and started eating I was actually having an okay time. I couldn't stop laughing at Ashton because he was screaming something about jiggly puffs and smiling when Calum started doing that stupid ugurupucco thing or whatever that is he does that makes Michael laugh so loud, throwing his head back and scrunching his eyes and nose. I wish I could make him laugh like that.

Yet, I couldn't stop thinking. Did he mean it the way I wanted it mean? I'm so stupid for even doubting that he only loves me as a friend, of course he wouldn't want me any other way. I'm already lucky we are friends.

Although its been a while since he's been staring at me a lot and i find it kind of really fucking cute that every time I catch him staring he looks down blushing with that cute little smile on his cute little face. Gosh Luke you sound like a Granny. I then get pulled out of my thoughts by a loud voice that comes from Ashton of course.

"Guys guys I have an idea! Let's get drunk! Pleeeasee?" He pouts and flutters his eyelashes. Ashton can be annoying but I love him, as a brother, Calum too but the only reason why I'm not as close to him is because he just doesn't know how to comfort or give advice to people and lately it's awkward when he sees me sad and doesn't know what to do so he just stays quiet.

"Oh god Ashton, you know what happened last time you got drunk," Calum snorted.

"What? Sorray my bladder was being an ass and couldn't hold it in, when I have to go I go!" Why is Ashton yelling? There will always be something nobody understands about Ashton, I am glad we're the only ones here this late.

"Ashton fuck off and stop being so fucking loud," Michael said, thanks Michael. I swear this headache is killing me and Ashton's loudness isn't helping.

"Hey don't swear!" It's funny how Ashton is always telling us not to swear yet he's the one that swears like a fucking sailor so, again I do not understand Ashton and his stupidity.

"I don't want to go," I said in a soft voice. I really don't, I don't to be around anyone right now except Michael. I just want to lay down, cuddle him and go to sleep in his arms while he plays with my hair, he's my only escape from this bullshit world.

"Okay Ashton shut the fuck up we'll go!!" Calum snapped in frustration at a more than happy Ashton.

"But Luke doesn't want to go guys," The white haired boy intervenes, of course he would be the only one listening to me.

"No it's okay, I'll go too," I said changing my mind, maybe drinking will make me forget for a while.

"Okay Since Luke is going I'm going too, but I won't drink, I am gonna have to take care of you stupid fucktards," Michael grumbles with a blank face and stands up.

"Yayy!! Go shawty it's yo birthday we gonna party like it's yo birthday" Ashton happy dances and yeah really needs Jesus.

Maybe this will be a good or maybe I'll do something I'll regret something but at least, I'll forget.