She accepted me (Lesbian) (Futanari)

3 and 2

I paced back and forth in the waiting room. My chest heaving, know that shit was my fault.

She in the fucking emergency room because of me and my ego. How could I have done this?

I balled my fist on punched through the steel wall next to me. FUCK.

I kept pacing and pacing, May was crying in the chair behind me. I wanted so bad to console her but I can't touch her.

I gave her tissues and looked at her, giving her a look saying 'I'm sorry, this is my fault'. She took the tissues from me and wiped her face.

15....

30....

45....

An hour turned into three, three turned into 5. God please let her be ok.

I started to hyperventilate at the thought of her dying because of me. Because of my negligence. I pushed I too far. I should have stayed with her. I shouldn't have abandoned her.

I dropped to my knees and felt my heartbreak. I stood up, grabbed my things. Maybe I should go and have them inform me when she's awake.

As I was walking through those double doors, I heard a voice. "Excuse me princess, I um....well....-" "Either say it or get the fuck out of my face, human" I'm not in the mood to be bothered by anyone. My girl is laying in a hospital bed, fighting for her life. " I'm doctor Jorje, your um wife? Is awake, she asked to see you" the doctor said, stammering his way through the words.

SHE'S AWAKE!! I grabbed May and ran through the halls of the emergency ward. I checked every room and bursted through one last room. Room 4D. Her scent filled my nose and my heart started to beat and race but as soon as my happiness came, it went.

I saw her, laying there. Face cut up, needles in her arms, her beautiful brown eye black and swollen. My heart sank to the pit of my stomach and I felt sick. This was all my fault. I gagged and felt my stomach contract. I covered my mouth and ran into the attached bathroom. This is all my fault.

I threw up in the sink, as it was slowing down, I heard a cry from a little girl. Our little girl. She was crying over Rogue. She too knew that I had caused this.

I wiped my face and gargled some water to get the taste and smell of vomit out of my mouth.

I looked in the mirror, staring at my reflection. Looking for something, I had no idea what, but for a second I saw my true self. A monster, I saw the people I had killed, the lives I had ruined, all the hearts I had broken. Just as I was about to look away, I saw Rogue...my next victim in the endless battle with myself.

I turned to look at her but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I had sent her away from me and was nowhere when she needed me the most. I couldn't look at her, I didn't deserve to see her. I walked out the bathroom with my head down, I sat next to her bed and laid my head on my hands. How could I have been so dumb? So reckless? So utterly and completely stupid?

As I sat with my head on my hands, I felt a hand rest in my hair. I knew it was her but I couldn't face her, I couldn't help but think that all this was my fault. I left her alone, I neglected her.

"Please look at me" I heard a soft voice say. I can't. I can't look at her. "Rex, please just look at me." She says again, almost begging. She's begging for you, for YOU of all people in this situation and you're so pathetic that you can't even look at the damage you've caused. Look at her you insufferable fool, look at what your so-called righteousness gets you. Do it!

I turn my head to her as I stare at her face. Bruised and cut, her beautiful brown skin, now grey and dull.It will always glow but it was nothing like before. "God I am a monster..." I sigh and grab her hand squeezing it firmly.